Jack, "a Freak" and "ashamed", deep inside, I guess the raw feelings are there for me too... But soon on July 10 the sun will rise, and a new day-rebirth will begin for you, use this tool to your best potential, don't beat your self over the past, look as this wls as a new start and new attitute for the better. Just don't forget how it feels to be on the bottom, in someway I think it will keep us grounded as to what could happen if things get out of hand. After all we're seeking help, to better ourselves, to become heathier. Good luck to you.

And it occurs to me, "Wow, time is near!" A little nervous and sick of tests, Destiny has a robot for cutting. Part of me is relieved, Part of me is ashamed. Know that i need this, Will not be a freak anymore. thanks for listening jack

cyndi, Congratulations to you on your Re birth date. Good luck.

Leigh, Woo Hooo to you!!!!! I'm too busy to be nervous, too many things to do and Too many loose ends to tie up before my surgery. But ineviabley, it will be here, and after waiting 11/2 years when all is said and done, I think mostly i will be relieved. Then, all I need to do is focus on me, and my health for a change...that's a swith, usally i'm focusing on other people, Now is my time, to focus on me and to keep the eye on the prize...........you too, where in this together now is the time for YOU...good luck to you!

My nervousness comes and goes. I have had my date for 2 weeks now, and am finally not thinking about it every waking hour. Instead I'm eating all the foods I've denied myself and have planned my "last supper" - here's to food funerals!