6 MONTH BLUES

Hey all! anyone experencing any depression or negative feelings about their journey. I know I have had success, but am terrified that I will "do bad". I have been dealing with old habits/addictions resurfacing. I have been wanting to snack and craving carbs(like frys and chips) Maybe its PMS. I think it might be my past history of failing with weight loss attempts. I have also feared that my weight loss will just STOP after these 6 months! I'm the first to admit these thoughts are wacko, but all too real. Am I the only one?? Isn't 6 months too soon to feel this way?? Any advice or encouragement will be sooo appreiciated.

Hello, I just joined this message board, but was moved by your post. I went in search of people to talk to because I am having the same feelings as you. I am scared that I will gain it all back. I am fighting a lot of cravings. I haven't been doing the right things for about two weeks now. Not sure what this is all about, but it seems to have gotten really hard all of a sudden. You are not the only one!! Don't feel alone!! Jodi....

I know exactly how you feel. For the past couple of weeks I have beend snacking on sugar free cookies and chips. I was up 2 pounds yesterday at the gym. I am so scared that I will never make it to goal, or worse yet gain back everything I have lost.

Gurl we both on that cloud I see that every one is going through this I know surgery sure dont help our mental we can do all we want but neva be prepared mentally and anyone who tells u they dont binge eat r snack at times please dont even attept to listen to that because every one has there times and we all have felt like u do I crave all bad foods and i hit mcdonalds up alot as well but I am trying to restart my diet today and i pray it works but its normal to crave them things and i enjoy myself to them as well but dont eat alot of them and exercise because u cant deprive urself of every thing!!! God luck !!!!Shemone

Thank u all for responding. Although I am sorry to hear you guys experience these difficulties, it is comforting to know Im not alone. I went to the doc today (85lbs since surgery/ 108 total loss wooo hoo ) but didnt ask about the cravings and such. In his waiting room, people talked about this issue, was like a mini support group session. some were up to 2 yrs postop. Soooo I guess it comes with the territory!

Dear Rebecca.... You are doing awesome. I wouldn't beat yourself up about the cravings. I think someone else posted here about how we all have those cravings. They were so right. I have found it that maybe a taste of something is so much better than denying myself everything. I have really started exercising seriously and have found that has really motivated me a lot. My family is shocked because I am NOT into exercising at all. Keep up the great work!! Jodi

Hello everyone, I too am in the same boat. The cravings are full steam ahead. I've been feeling fearful that the weightloss is coming to an end. I had my surgery July 9, and it seems that the scale has stopped moving. I know I need to become more active, but I'm still a little worried about the return of the battle with cravings. It's nice to have others to share these feelings with who understand. I wish us all the best in this struggle. We will overcome this. Rosa

Hello Rebecca, I know this may seem wierd but I think from a psychological standpoint I have your feelings figured out because my surgery was 7/16/03 and I feel the same. Your body has lost so much weight and it is healing itself. Your lifestyle and some of your personality have changed even. So our bodies include our brains...and that is healing too. So whatever issues and feelings(guilt, shame, out of control, fear rejection, addictions) you went through when you were gaining the weight you now have to work back through to heal your mind on the way back down the scale. At the top weight we had a comfort zone of denial and such is no longer the case. We know the changes we have made and we want to protect them. So we must go step by step back through all the feelings and habits and resolve them.For example, instead of running to the frig when we are stressed we run to the gym....correct response right? Not for everyone. Some still struggle(like me) with the old habits or get depressed because we can't let ourselves binge. I think the key is to find what you will do when you are tempted...such as journaling, knitting, excercising, talking on the phone. But also to use the surgery and it's improvement to our bodies as empowerment to draw boundaries in our relationships to improve them as well. In my case I didn't want to leave or cheat even though the emotional pain was horrible.I had no limits or pride or self protective measures. So I cheated in the frig. Now I have changed that.When he gets out of line I leave for an hour or two.I let him know without a word or a fight he has crossed the line. Things are much better now. I hope this helps. Fear is normal.....but it is up to us to actively search out peace within ourselves. Regina

I know exactly whayt you are going through. I have been dealing with the same issues, hoping that I don't screw everything up. Thank god there are others out there who understand where we are all coming from. It's tough, but we will all make it through!!!

Thank god - I'm not alone in this!!!! I thought I was a complete failure because I would be the only one struggling with the depression and chip-cravings! Thanks for posting on this subject everyone - it really, really helps to know I'm not alone!