14 hours to go!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it's here already. I've been patiently waiting to get to this point and now that I have, I'm SCARED TO DEATH!!!!! I think I have every emotion possible running through my head right now. My 8 year old this morning with tears in her eyes said "mommy, please don't go get surgery, I don't want something to go wrong". Breaks my heart to think of the pain and emotional roller coaster my family is going through right now. It really makes me think, am I doing the right thing. My god, what if something does happen, and I elected to have this surgery, it's a terrible thought. But, I have god's hands on me right and the thoughts and prayers from all you wonderful people. I've got to say, is so much appreciated. I'll keep you all in my thoughts as I journey to the losing side. Best wishes to all and thanks so much again.