Surgery coming soon.
I'm there too. My surgery is July 8 (at Cypress-Fairbanks in Houston). It kind of seems unreal to me. Am I really going to do this to myself? I'm worried about so many different things: dying, permanent disability, not being able to take (or absorb) my daily medicines for depression, having to eat only the foods I never liked in the first place, and probably a few other things as well. But whenever I sit down to re-think this, I come around again to the belief that I need to go ahead with it.
I'm having surgery on 7/15 and everything hit me today....actually tonight. I feel like I'm going to have an anxiety attack. It's 1:45am and I've got these butterflies in my stomach, I can't stop thinking about this.....but I'm not really scared.....just ready to throw up.......I'm dying for a cigarette.....and i quit on New Year's Eve just for this surgery. I'm also dying to eat something but I'm doing Atkins........**** **** ****!!!!!!! I need to expel this energy......maybe I'll go for a walk around the block.....yeah, right.......in my pajamas walking the neighborhood at 2am...........I can see it now, the neighbors will think I'm a complete lunatic!