you can do it. 

Congrats and good luck. I will pray for him and you.

Just got my date, no I'm crossing my fingers that my insurance doesn't deny me!

Thanks soooo very much for all of your replies! I'm so glad that I'm not alone! James..... everything you say is right on!..... Thank you thank you thank you!
Good luck to you all on your journey to happiness and being helthy!
(((hugs)))

I am right with you.  I am scurd, too  I am a food addict.   It is very hard to consciously stop an addiction with a major surgery. (like we are doing)  You are going to have doubts and sabotage yourself but just remember you are not hurting anyone but you.  I have to lose 15 lbs before my  surgery.. It is killing me.   You are not wasting your time and you don't want to bulk up.  You have to be smaller, so you can have a healthy surgery.  You will die if you don't have the surgery, especially if you binge eat.   I have a friend who is 450lbs and I could just as easily be there. I am just waiting for him to die.   I had to stop this cycle of hurting myself.  I would suggest you contact a counselor and a nutritionist.  I started going to this therapist that works at a practice that focuses on eating disorders.  I originally thought it was for skinny people.  People with anorexia and so forth, but there is more heavier people there than skinny.   There is so many people with these issues.  You are not alone.  All of us are having the same issues and concerns, but we need to focus on what we will be able to do.  I will be able to dance and tie my shoes.  It is worth not having a chocolate strawberry sundae in a chocolate dipped waffle bowl from Diary Queen ever again. 

Good luck !!!!!