Anyone else in a funk?
I heard it's normal to feel tired due to the extra work your body is going thru to loose the weight. I do feel tired, but did even before the surgery. God just gives me enough strength to keep going and i zonk out once the girls are in bed. Majority of the time I knock out on the couch and don't wake til 2a-3a when I head to bed.
I have been on a funk, emotinally, but I think it goes hand in hand with the family issues I have(not with the hubby, but mom & aunt, brother & sister & dad)
I feel like I have worked so HARD to get to where I am today and struggled since I had no one besides God to loan me a hand and I don't think I've done so bad for myself. As a kid I was mistreated, walk-on, a push-over, abused and the list goes on. That now that I'm an a adult and on top of that a mother, I refuse to bend my arm for people's dishonesty, rudeness, or even the minor attempt to try and see me as a push over. I'm so emotinally exhausted! But yet to my family since I have an college education I shouldn't stand up to my beliefs. To them I'm too "white" or want to be. How rude is that!!! or I'm not Mexican enough. Whatever that means!!! Yet to my in-laws I'm too Mexican!!! So sad that never in my life I had to deal with something like this. Well at least not in my family. School is another story.
My thing is that I refuse to speak GHETTO as my siblings do! I am an adult and most importantly I have children who look up to me and want to repeat each and every word I say. I refuse to be that kind of example to my kids! It's sad! Then they want to lie to my face about things and get caught up. One of the many things I dislike is dishonesty and being a hipocrit! I can't force myself to have a conversation with someone who I know has lied to me about something especially if its grave you know! yet, I'm the one with the issues because I decide to back away and stay away.
Sorry I know this is kinda of the WLS topic... Didn't mean to unload on you hon, but thanks for reading..I hope and pray you feel better soon!
You should always stand up for what you believe in and be who you are.... don't worry what all those others think. They are ignorant.. not you.
I hope this gets better for both of us..
Kelly
High/Surgery/Current/Goal
288/242/138/145
Thank you Kelly,
I hear ya. Fortunately, for us my husband's insurance paid for it. Unfortunately, I've never had a solid family and that's what continues to hurt you know. Especially, because I have children now. Just feels like things get worse as time goes by with their negative atittudes when they see something good happening. They eventually get to me.
I just hate the phrase turn the other cheek....Call me stubborn, but I can't. Sometimes, it just feels like I'm pushing everyone away and I guess it hurts more cuz they are family(blood) you know.
I pray too that it gets better! Thanks for listening
Kelly
High/Surgery/Current/Goal
288/242/138/145
I have talked with him. I informed him that my body nor my mind needed his negative energy. If he couldn't be nice then don't talk. I can't afford any more stress. Plus he is lucky I am able to do all I do. I was back to work full time in a week and few days. Plus I take care of the kids, cook and do dishes. (he does some too, don't worry) But just being able this early on with out whining I think is doing great.
Kelly
High/Surgery/Current/Goal
288/242/138/145