A little bit freaking out?!?!

OKay so tomorrow is my all clear liquids day, plus I give myself the lovenox shot at 5pm.  It's sitting on my counter, and ever since I brought it home from CVS today, I've been a bit uneasy.  Monday morning 5:30am arrival time at the hospital!  OMG!  Last night was my first very sleepless, restless night, so I just took a xanax to hopefully help me calm down to sleep tonight.  I'm just starting to get those thoughts and fears...     this is normal right?  Like will I survive the surgery to hold my kids again?  Is this really the right thing to do?  Am I sure?  Am I ready?  Ahhhhh!!  Help!  Tell me this is normal!

It is totally normal!! I have been having moments of those exact thoughts and feelings. We have the same surgery date and I know we will each do great! I am leaving for Denver tomorrow morning and packing today has made this very real. Most all people say the only thing they regret is not having this surgery sooner. We will be on that losers bench before ya know it. Good luck..I'll be thinking and praying for all of us with the same bright futures in store!

Very normal.  Very understandable.  You reached your decision to do this based on careful consideration.  Trust yourself that you made the right decision.

Good luck.

Ariela

Thanks!!  Well I slept very well last night... feel a little "hungover" even today, just groggy.  I am going to happily down my clear liquids today and keep busy.  (I feel like I'm nesting, like before giving birth... . lol!)  Best of luck to you Rafting Lady!  Didn't realize we had the same date!!!  Wow!!!  See you on the "other side!"

I know how you feel.  I have to be at Baylor at 5am tomorrow.  I have been on the liquid diet for 2 weeks.  Did you not have to do that?  I am ready, but I'm also having those dreadful thoughts.  I wish you the best of luck and I pray we both hit our goal in record time!!  Jody

Good luck Jody!!! 

No liquid diet for me, just clear liquids today (although the past couple days I have been going easy on eating in general and getting accostomed to protein shakes, etc....    At this point now, I have 15 minutes until I have to shove a syringe into my stomach.  I'll be glad when I get through that.  And I am STARVING!  I can't wait to go to bed, so I can stop feeling so hungry.  lol....  I am SO ready!!!  

Good luck everyone!!!