6 days post op

Hi everyone, 6 days post op as of today. I feel like I have run the gamut of emotions and physical sensations in less than a week. I thought that everyone at the hospital (UMass Memorial, Worcester, Ma) was wonderful, and that I got excellent care there. Since I have never had surgery, I was shocked to discover how painful post op recovery was and still is. I'm still taking about 6 percocets a day--but I do feel a little bit better every day. Luckily, I have yet to feel nausea or overstuffed, which had me worried that I would be the one person in a million that the surgery wasn't successful for. Then again, I haven't really tried to overeat either, although I have eaten a piece of cheese, and felt no different for it.  My staples are starting to get pink at the edges so I have applied some bacitracin a few times a day. Hopefully that will work. I am sooo sick of sweet shakes, so I have started to mix  v-8 and chicken broth (both on my acceptable list of liquids) to make a delicious soup.  The hardest thing to get in is water because if you sip it wrong, a lot of air seems to get in the pouch. I gained 16 lbs while in the hospital, which I have learned is from the IV fluids, and general swelling. I have lost 13 which means I have 3 to go to get to my pre op weight! I've been constipated , and started stool softeners with success. I'm imaging that I'll wake up one morning and be 3 lbs below the pre op weight. That's how I have always lost weight in the past. Nothing for weeks, then a 10 lb weight loss overnight. Odd. 
   Emotionally, I have gone from thinking that I've made a huge mistake, to thinking I've done exactly the right thing. I still look at food and really, really, want to eat it. I feel like I have lost my best friend, and my worst enemy all at once. I have fits of anxious doubt that this surgery will work, to utter fear that it will work too well, and i'll disappear. I've had several nightmares, in part due to the perocet. Thankfully, I have a lot of support as I went through the weight loss surgery program with 2 friends--one who has had the surgery 3 weeks before me, and one who will have it 8 weeks after me.
    I hope that everyone else is doing well, well, well, and I'm looking forward to this journey with you all.

Welcome to the board. I am having my RNY surgery tomorrow so I will be joining the losers bench with everybody on here.  Can't wait to see the new us!