Starting weight: 297 DOS: 261 Today: 281.5 Since surgery : 79.5 pounds lost Total: 115.5 pounds losts since highest Rolling total for group: 206.5 lbs

I did good. I just wasn't in a turkey eating mood or something. I ate minimally... the only thing I splurged on was I ate a biscuit and a couple bites of apple pie. my mom already dumped the left overs by Saturday morning. I guess I wasn't the only one not in the mood for turkey! I actually lost a pound over the last couple of days and i just bought a new pair of jeans in a size 6. My hubby, stepdaughter & I are having family portraits taken next week! I'm excited.

Pam, I know how you feel I have been going through some rough times myself. I am thankful that GOD is there to help me. I have to pray, "GOD, I have faith; just remove my non-faith." It is so easy to have faith for someone else but when it comes to yourself, it is a little harder. It sounds to me like you are in a case of severe depression over this (this is a stage I have been going through). You need to get out and walk at least an hour a day (that is what my doctor told me). He said consider it therapy. Otherwise, your home will become your jail. What will happen if you lose your job? Is your house paid for? Will your husbands income suffice, that is if you are married? Will you lose your car? I know these are the biggies that people think of, I know I did. You know what? I did lose a lot of material things including my house. But, as long as you have GOD, you have everything. He has helped me through so much. I have felt like such a failure. I worked as a paramedic for 25 years and had just went through nursing school and I had a stroke. Lost the job. GOD has kept us. We don't live in a box. We don't just have a roof over our head, we have a whole house! We live with our daughter now. I have done the same things you have done. I even won't go out without my husband. I don't answer the phone still. I am seeing a doctor for this to help me through. I know that GOD uses doctors as intruments. I didn't want to go but my husband made me. I started reading the book of Job. That cheered me up alot. He lost a lot of things, more than I could comprehend. But at the end GOD reminded Job what he could do. He threw the stars into the sky and He suspended them in the space. He made the earth and it is suspended over nothing. If he can do that, he can do anything, including take care of us. I am a chatty Cathy, so I what I am trying to say is, even if you lose your job, GOD will have something better for you. He has a plan for you. Though you are in a valley, if you depend on him he will help you up to the top of the mountain. You are in my prayers. Elisa

Pam Your state is understandable. Even though you may not be among the 38, you are thinking of the others and what such terrible news would mean to you. It's a miserable situation for the 38 that go and the others that stay. Even after the announcement, you will probably take a while to bounce back. I also hear you about meals...I can very easily get off track if I don't stick to a strict schedule and meal plan. It doesn't help that hunger is ever present! Take heart in your faith; it will carry you through. Let us know how the week goes. Cleo

hope you get some good answers! I've been gaining and losing the same 2 lbs for almost 3 weeks, but I've gone from size 22 to size 18 so I figure my body is doing whatever it will do. I don't see my nutritionist for a couple more weeks so I'm still plugging away at 800 calories. I had stopped my protein drinks for the last 2 weeks, felt like I was getting enough from food. I'm gonna start them again today. I have enough protein powder I should use it anyway. Good luck! ugh, stalls suck. judi