i need understanding and guidance

Well Sarah, you've gotten a LOT of GREAT advice here. You have done a fabulous job and you will get back on track. It's important to you and I know you'll do it. Just make sure you take your vitamins....it's critical. You could end up in the hospital if you don't. I was told to take Centrum Chewable multivitams (twice a day). They aren't expensive. Right now, I'm taking a regular multivitamin (not chewable) as I ran out of the chewables and I can swallow these just fine. Come back and let us know how things go. You've determined yourself to get back on track and you will be just fine!