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just a note i am hateing everything even myself these last couple days. I aint lost any weight and they are telling me to eat more, i dont want to eat more, and yes i drank all weekend never got a buzz and oh no now i am a bad person, i am gettin so pissed that nothen is ever right, whatever, i see why people trade addictions, but the funny thing is i was never addicted to food, I just ate fast food cause it was easy when you work till 8 at night but now that i had WLS everyone thinks i was a food addict no everyone is different no everyone is addicted to things, I am about to get addicited to being pissed is that possible. so yeah i went to post op yesterday and the nurse can tell somethings up with me, i am more worried about burning the calories i eat, i make sure i burn them at night , i aint pooping right i aint feeling all happy go lucky i am sick of this food aint good to me at all. I am suppose to go do hair tonight and i just aint in that friendly mood everyone is use to but i need to make the money i start at the new salon monday our pictures came out in the paper and i look like a freaking cow, well i guess everyone will still reconize me then huh,

Oh girl.... I am so sorry you having such a rough time... I wish things were going better for you and hopefully they will improve soon. I know not everyone has a food addiction, but people like to group us all together like we all have the same problems and that's why we had the surgery.... to those people I give a big WHATEVER!!!!! This can be such a confusing and rough time and people who haven't had the surgery think oh you should be happy now.... but it's not that easy.... I feel you girl, I hope things get better soon.... ~Crystal S.

Serena - Really sorry life still seems crappy for you. Wish I could wave a wand over you. It sucks when you try so hard to change your life and it doesn't happen the way you thought it would. Good to vent here, though. Take the advice to eat more - it works, but they have to be calories with nutrition (protein!) not empty sugar/fats (fast food, alcohol). Since I added 200 calories per day, I've been losing 4-5 pounds/week (gad I hate to say it - afraid it will stop for me too). Bad news is that I still feel like a cow, too! But, note to Serena - you don't look like a cow!!!! It's really hard to hang onto the thought that it will get better. You have such a great joy in life when you're feeling good, and I just know you're fun to be with!

Serena - I hope your day starts to get better... I am sending some luv your way from Ohio. I feel what your saying about people.. I too am having some issues with people around me. like if I hear one more damm time , "I took the easy way out" I am going to go CRAZY BALISTIC!!!! Keep in mind that it is my belief that they are the ones with the issues. in our society people have to label. It is just something that they do to make themselves feel better. I know you hate eating.. I do too now. but try to force yourself so you don't get some defciencency. It would totally suck to lose all the weight and then have our health fail us worse than before we had the surgery. as far as the old pics.. I think it is an excellent conversation piece don't you. Hope you feel better. HUGZ! Valarie

Serena: hope you are feeling better. You do not look like a freaking cow, you are an attractive woman. I know you are tired of the generalizations but they say there are a lot of hormones in the fat cells you are losing (and you are losing just not every single day). So, you either need more sex or to vent more! (teasing) I think there are emotional issues from having our guts rearranged. No matter what weight we are we are not "normal" anymore. We have to eat differently, etc. etc. etc. The gal who did my psych eval recommended I come back if I felt like I needed to because of all the emotional crap. I think I will need to down the road. Was the person who did yours nice? Sometimes just talking it out helps. Hang in there, add flax seet to help with the poops! (and water, lots of water). It will get better. You Can Do This! judi

GIRL ARE YOU KIDDING ME?????????? DO YOU KNOW HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE????? YOU ARE A HOT MAMA!!!!!! Just look at this pic of you!!!!!!!!! my daughter the other day asked who you were she said she's really pretty!!!!!!!!!! GIRL the weight will come off it will!!!!!! i too get irritated it's just not dropping I am like if i can't even eat 1/4 cup of food then why the h..l isn't it coming off more???????????????????????????????????????????????? but it will all of a sudden it will..sometimes i go back to the march or april boards just to see what they have lost etc. ( i lurk there) and i know that it will come off. ((((((((((((((((big hug for you))))))))))))))))))) now just remember how you felt when you went out and shaked your booty the other night!!!!!!! YOU SAID YOU LOOKED GOOD AND YOU FELT GOOD........and I AM SURE YOU DID!!!!!!!!!11