I still feel like a big fat cow
I dont know why I am almost 45 lbs down and droped from a 28/30 to a 22/20 but i still feel like a big fat cow, I am eating right I am drinking water and protein i dont know what the deal is, I am very easliy aggrivated, I just want to crawl into a hole and dissaper for like 6 months, I cant find a new hair style i like and want to do , i am just feeling blah about myself and I dont like this, I start my new job monday and cant be like this I am a stylist a happy go lucky make everyone look good kinda person but how do i do that when i feel like this, what the hell is wrong with me.
What is wrong is perspective. I am an artist. Frequently, I look at my work and feel each imperfection is a scar on me personally. I'll see things wrong that the hubble space telescope would miss on clear day. Then someone will walk up and be totally be blown away with the work I have done. Honestly it shocks me everytime. The difference is sometimes from my perspective I dont have the ablitiy to appreciate the work in progress as whole because a detail is bothering me, but other people are looking objectively at the whole piece of art. They can see that it is good work. Every great castle has a moat. Don't get stuck moaping in the moat. If you are standing in the moat it can be difficult to appreciate the renovations on the castle as a whole. You just need affirmation that you are doing well. Because you are. Have you lost 45 pounds this fast eating right before? You feel the way you do because you are looking at the beginning of a project and your mind is getting trapped there. Guess what everyone does that. However, focusing on your potential can help with that. As a stylist you are an artist too. Try maybe to think of yourself objectively when it comes to hairstyle. Instead of thinking ok what am I going to do for my hair. Imagine yourself as a client and what would you do to best bring out the features of a client that looks like you. Now it may be easy for me to say because I'm an illustrator and graphic designer, but I also teach. It helps my students to step back from a project using disassociation so that they can view something objectively. Then when they go back to personalize that thing they have done. They can subjectively appreciate it more. Good luck and Cheer up. You've got alot of people on here supporting you.
I know exactly what you are on about at the moment i feel like there is some set of masked thieves that come in every night with bigger clothes and tamper with my scales so they keep going down. When i see myself i don't see the changes because I have grown up with the slow changes that have got me to this final point. I personally saw myself as overweight really early on and the changes that meant i had to get bigger and bigger clothes were not noticeable to my eyes but they were very noticeable to others. Now I am losing weight at a high rate my family keep telling me how great I look and that I am loosing a lot of weight my face looks thinner etc but i sometimes just dont believe them. The problem is you are watching each ounce fall off all the time and so all the changes that are happening are not registering to your brain. But YOU ARE DOING WELL. Sounds like you are really getting a hang of what you need to do and as long you keep it up that final goal will be achieved. It is not an instant fix (although i wi**** was) BUT it is going to be a fix there is a positive movement towards that goal and although you can not see it yourself i bet others are already seeing the difference i mean 45lbs thats a lot and you should be proud. Just hold on in there and think about what it will be like in a years time and I bet any money you will notice the difference Hope this helps try to stay positive
thanxs guys i am trying to keep my head up, I think I am pmsing to so that dont help, now i really feel the bloating before i could just say oh i am bloated lol now i really feel it. I am going to go to a nice salon and nottell them i am a stylist and see what they do maybe that will help then i need to do my nails and a pedicure i think i will treat myself all weekend, thanxs for your support hugs to you all
Serena I looked at your pic and I think you are one of the most beautiful women on here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Try not to get discouraged but like the men said we all do, i had a little moment last week....hormones do have alot to do with it as well.....uggghh thank God for hormones...lol.............but really you are doing great and you look great and keep your head up girl........you are a chica bonita' (((((((hugs to you)))))))
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