happy and depressed at the same time??
Make sure and take pictures monthly. Then at least you can look at it and see how much less back fat (and other areas) you have then you used to have. There is the victory!
It's hard to get our heads around that we still have a long way to go.
It's your head doing the devil/angel things to you...."Cool! I lost 50 pounds!"...."Yes, but you still weigh 300 pounds!"