4 weeks out already

Wow how fast things fly by. Today marks my fourth week since surgery. I am feeling better every day, and things resemble a "normal" life again. I've been back to work for a week, and since it is mostly working at a computer; it has been relatively easy to go back. I have lost 48.5 pounds, total (including pre-op) and I couldn't be happier about that. I can hardly wait to loose some more so I can begin to feel more energetic. I will admit, I get bummed out about the loss of food. My head wants hot dogs, pizza, sandwiches, tacos, etc. You know all the foods I cannot have! It is really tough going to a party or function, because I cannot snack, and when a meal is served, it is never something I can eat. Case in point. My wife and I are expecting a baby in about a month. Last Sat. our families threw us a baby shower co-ed. They served a meal. Green chili chicken enchiladas, posole, Spanish rice, and tortillas. I had to bring cheese and soy beans, because couldn't eat any of the food they prepared. It all smelled so wonderful!!! I really wished I had not had the surgery that day! My wife is doing well, although she is getting a large belly. It bothers her, but I think she is beautiful! I remind her that pregnancy is natural and beautiful, but I think my words are falling on deaf ears. I do love her so, and wish she could see herself through my eyes! I'll try to keep everyone updated as I go through this... Richard I

I know what you mean, there are days when I think man why did I do this specially during the summer, with bar b ques and partys and the lake and beer ect, but then deep inside we gotta think about our kids and how we added 20 years to our lives instead of looseing 20 years to obesity and think now you get to teach your baby how to eat right. i know my kids are tied of fish and chicken but hey I think they have all dropped a few lbs to. And you will be able to run and catch her/him and go down the slides at the park and on the swings, then when the fair comes to town you can go on the little rides without looking at the ride then looking at yourself and thinking man that would be embarrssing if I dont fit, but good job on the taking your own food to the baby shower I am haveing our first outing this weekend its hubbys company picnic and yeah salads and salsa and chile cook off and how I miss not getting to have it and I might look funny over there eating a bit of cottage cheese and some fruit but hey we are healthy now arent we?

I'm 4 weeks too. And I admit there have been a few times when I've said to myself "What the hell did I just do?!" I think it's a normal grieving process. It doesn't help much when you've got a family at home still eating potato chips out of the bag when sitting next to you watching TV! Keep your chin up! Great job on the 48 lbs! I just passed 33 lbs lost this morning and got to change the first digit of my weight. Only 100 more pounds to go and then I'll be the weight on my driver's license (HAHAHAHA!) I'm finding I have to find more to do with myself or I fixate on what I cannot have. Your new baby will help you here a lot!