messed up body image?
Hi everyone,
I just need some informed perspectives I think. About 20 pounds ago, when I looked in the mirror, I was pretty happy with what I was seeing. I felt like my stomach was flattening and things were coming off pretty evenly.
Nowadays, when I look in the mirror, all I see is this big roll sitting around my hips, my butt looks really big to me, and I can't shake the feeling that I am getting fatter. The scale says I am not, my clothes don't fit any tighter (sadly not any looser), but I am definitely less comfortable in my clothes and my skin lately.
I have some theories. I thought I would bounce them off the group, see if anyone is in the same weird head space as I am.
Theory #1:
My skin, having sagged to unprecedented looseness has now dropped below the waist band of my pants, so I am definitely rounder there.
THeory#2:
My brain is punishing me for poor food choices, by giving me my fat girl image, trying in a vain and misdirected effort to inspire better habits.
Theory #3:
I am getting fatter, and my muscle development is reversing so the scale numbers don't go up.
Theory #4:
I have post surgical pyschosis and this, and all of you, is really a figment of my very disturbed imagination.
Theory #5:
I'm bloated--yeah, that one didn't work very well when I weighed 291 either.
Thanks guys, I look forward to your great insights.
Lori
I go for #1, #2 and maybe #4. LOL! Seriously, I have been feeling fatter also. I think it's that my stomach skin is sagging more. It looks fat in comparison to my butt and thighs. Plus my boobs have gone south adding to the amount of excess there. I could probably wear 2 sizes smaller of pants if it weren't for this roll around my stomach. I actually look skinny from my shoulders/breast bone up (mainly because everything is south of that point).
I've been looking at PS photos lately and am setting my sights on PS either later this year, or maybe next year. I think you just have to keep repeating how much skinnier you are and soon you will start believing it... or get the PS to make it happen!
Good luck and hang in there!
Well, you are right. I definitely need to get some PS. I am going to post about my challenges with that. I thought I better get the ball rolling, wait lists here are pretty long. I didn't realize how long. My consult for a breast reduction is scheduled for June 2008 (not a typo I really did mean 2008). Hopefully I have something to reduce, since breast lifts are not covered. I am praying the surgeons get creative when they submit the application for approval. Surgery is about 3 months after the consult date. So much for my plan to book it during June so that I could have some time off while my son is home from school.
Im going to say its because of saggy skin.... I have about 25lbs to get to goal and my stomach is shrinking but starting to look worse and worse to me... before it just hung... now it still hangs instead of being big and hangy its wrinkly and shaped funky... the sides are flattening out and now I have a funky sticking out part in the middle! yuuuuuuuuck! Also my chicken wing arms are getting worse... before my arms were big, now the top and sides are small and I have that nasty wing hanging off... the more Ive worked out and lost weight the worse it looks because it just doesnt seem to match the way the rest of my arm looks! Ive always had stretch marks on my arms and they are getting worse the more I look better!!! Its hard to deal with the after effects of losing weight... we are all happy to make it to our goals but still deal with the (as I like to call them) "marks of a fat chick"... we have the bodies of somebody who was fat and lost weight, not the body of somebody who has always weighed the weight we do.
Just know you arnt getting fatter, or crazy (or crazier!!) and your brain isnt punishing you!!!
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