I NEED SOME FEEDBACK PLEASE

I am going for it on 6/21...gastric bypass North Shore University Hosp. Im starting to get scared and would just like to chat with anyone who can share the experience with me. I had a lap band in 6/96 that did not work so I am going for the drastic surgery now. I feel the loss of the food already and I am starting to get really nervous. I am 54 yrs old...I lost 60 lbs since december in preparation for this. I started at 477 and my goal is to have a ride on a horse one day and a trip to Europe. Pray for me. Thanks everyone.....oooooooooooooooooooooooo im scared

Hi Catherine! My surgery is on June 21st also. I got scared and nervous back in the fall when I knew I had gotten to a certain point on the wait list. Gradually, as spring came that has subsided for the most part but the last couple days I've felt it come back in short waves. It is probably a normal thing. Everybody is different, but from all the reading and research I've done it sounds like there is a good chance our taste for food is going to change, we're going to want the healthier stuff and sweets and carbs will lose a great deal of their appeal as long as we "don't go there." I will do or give up anything to avoid nausea. I'd rather have pain than a sick stomach, truly. So this is why I have so much confidence in this particular tool. I do not think I could have had this kind of confidence in the band. Not to knock it because I know a lot of people have wonderful success with it but it sounds like it requires a discipline that I know I don't have. The other thing is this....again not to knock it or discourage anyone who's had the band BUT.....I know about 10 people who've had weight loss surgery. The GBers have kept their weight off and the banders are bigger than ever I'm sorry to say. Several of them are looking at a revision....or the drastic surgery. They say, "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels." so I'm trying to keep that in mind. And you know what.....I'm eating anything I want during this time up until my clear liquids start on the 16th. I'm finding that I'm having a lot of trouble figuring out what I want, I take two bites of whatever I decide on and feel full....and nothing tastes as good as I thought it would. So.....I'm thinking I might be dealing with head hunger. I've been really pounding my protein supplement which also helps me get in my water. I think it keeps my actual appetite in check. I'm praying that's what's going and if so, this is going to be a grrreat thing for me!!! That's exciting. Because, I'm about at the point now where I'd just like to get the show on the road and start the clear liquids. And they say that when you do begin really eating after you heal....everything tastes SO good. Because you're truly hungry and you really need it. I am scared and nervous about pain and getting the drain out and all that yucky junk but try to tell myself it's partly fear of the unknown because I've never had surgery and my son is adopted so....don't know about childbirth either.....and it's discomfort that does have an end. I try to look at this as being "pregnant with weight loss".....the idea of "giving birth" to this whole process does not appeal to me in the least....but I'm thinking the gift I get in the end is worth anything I have to go through to get it. Take care, try to relax. Prayers are with you. Amy

P.S. WAY TO GO on losing that 60 pounds!!! My son asked me this, "Mom....what about Gordon's...don't you want to go back home and have a Gordon's coke and a hot dog before your surgery???" (syrupy fountain coke....nectar from the gods) I thought about it long and hard and I really would love to make that $500 trip JUST to get that coke. BUT....what I said to him is this: You know.....I have a memory of that coke now. I remember with pleasure what it tastes like. If I go back and get one, where am I then? I still have only a memory. Not even in my fat life could I drink them daily (oh there was a time that I did!) so no matter how many I drink I will still always end up with a memory that I have to live with. I may as well stick with the memory I have and let it go at that. Thinking that way is the only thing that has kept me from "Last Supper Syndrome" at every restaurant (and there are loads) where I live in Hampton Roads, Virginia.

Hi there everyone I am next Thursday and I feel the little nerves sneaking up on me again!!!! Tring to let myself be lead by god right now... I do think if this is not what he wanted me to have done then I would not have gotten this far into the process... I pray alot and watch my girls from the sideline and just really appreciated the fact that they are beatiful and I will be healthy one day to just hang out with them and play at the park... I have watched their smiles and profiles for the last week just to ingrain that imagine in my mind... Life will be so nice on the Loser Bench and I will hold a place for the people after me.... Please say a prayer for me next Thursday and for my family.... Thanks Kim SKINNY CHICK IN TRAINING

I don't want to minimize by saying this, so don't take it that way, but you wouldn't be normal if you didn't go through some of this emotional rollercoaster. and the fear?? It's soo normal. It's okay. I promise. I'm dealing with the loss of food already too.. It's been my best friend. It's my comfort, my friend in celebration and my medication (similar to alcohol for alcoholics) *sigh* BUT, I KNOW that I will work that out - I'm already working it out as I'm recognizing the behaviours and working on them now. This tool is going to help me to work that out as well, and I am so looking forward to being healthy and thin!! It will be so much better then any of my comfort foods! I was listing them off last night to my husband... I was starved - hadn't eaten all day and he asked what I wanted for dinner and the list began!! I realize that I have a problem and I'm so glad this is available to me to help "treat" my issues... HELP... treat. You're going to get your dreams, all you have to do is keep them right in front of you and reach, reach, reach... you can do it. I'll be praying for you you're going to have alot of support if you hang out here too!! Catherine - thanks for your kind words you are a beautiful person - I believe that may be the first post of yours I've read and I can't wait to get to know you more. I absolutely loved your wisdom about the memories of the coke drink. Beautifully put. Kimmy - you know we got your back girl, and I'm counting on you to save me that seat!!! Prayers will be with you too, and I too agree, that God has gotten me this far for a purpose, He could have closed the door at any point but the doors keep FLYING open for me. There's still room... BUT.. I think this is in the plan for my life. Lotsa hugs... K