January, February, March, April....

I guess I've just been needing some motivation and inspiration today... so, I was wondering... How do you think your life will be different in the coming months? What things will be amazing for you in December? September? etc.. etc... Here's a list I am going to post to my own profile - it's encouraging and exciting to me! July - At the end of the month - I'll be 1mo, but at the beginning only a few weeks post op: I look forward to taking my kids back to school and the other moms seeing a difference in me.. not feeling so crummy every time I drop off or pick up. I look forward to participating in school activities more. ie. volunteering because I'm not as embarrased about my weight anymore. At least now I'm doing something about it. August - 1 mos post op: I will be seeing some friends and family I haven't seen for a few months and it will be exciting for them to see me a few pounds lighter. September 2mos post op: Can't think of anything special in this month, but I still look forward to a loss! October 3mos post op: I may actually dress up for the first time in eons for the 31st!! November 4mos post op: Thanksgiving... the beginning of the holiday season. I can't wait to view Thanksgiving from a "healthy" standpoint.. I can't wait to actually WANT to be in family pictures.. I know I'll still have a long way to go, but I want to see my loss in the pictures! We will start doing our family Christmas picture around Thanksgiving, and I'm GOING to be in it!!! December 5mos post op: My FAVORITE time of the year!! I can't wait to be a part of all the activities in a way that I haven't with my kids - being in the pictures, exchanging healthy gifts like bikes, and water sport stuff etc.. I want to experiment in the kitchen with healthy alternatives to the JUNK I used to prepare, I can't wait to take an active part in my church's christmas program now that I imagine I won't be afraid to get up in front of people. We are already talking about taking a vacation but I definately want to save some money for a REAL trip when I've met goal! I want to go to Disneyland/world with my kids and really enjoy myself for the first time.. walking with no trouble, fitting with no trouble, and being in the pictures! January 6 mos post op: New years... my resolution for life... what will it be? Probably something like how many miles I want to accumulate this year, or a new sport/activity I want to try, or new social opportunities to enjoy.... NOT weight loss!!! I won't have the two week later guilt after "failing" yet again.. I won't make the resolution already knowing in my heart I probaby won't make it. My resolution will be fun, and I'll be able to do it!! February 7 mos post op: Valentines... that will be a whole new experience.. I'm going to plan something super special for my hubby and I to enjoy - hopefully my body will allow me to put on a strappy slinky dress, even if I am still quite a ways off from goal.. It doesn't have to be form fitting. March 8 mos post op: Spring break - I'm hoping to take a small trip somewhere.. It will feel sooo good being thinner then before - flying on a plane, wooohoo!! No extension I'm sure! I'm only two inches away right now. April: 9 mos post op: My BIRTHDAY!! I turn 30 years old!!!! YIKES!! But it's okay, cause I will be a much happier person this birthday then I was on my last one! It will undoubtedly be a big party with lots of "thin" gifts... I can't wait! It's always been one of my dieting goals to be thin for my birthday so I'd feel good about myself! May 10 mos post op: School gets out, memorial day weekend - we will probably go camping. I want to be able to backpack this arduous 11mile trail to private camping areas that are to die for. June1st, 11 mos post op - anticipating my 1 year check up and enjoying my new life immensely. I look forward to not being so stinking hot since I won't have the extra "insulation". June 30th 2007, 1 year post op: I hope to be 125lbs plus down.. (I think I can be almost at goal if not there - which is 160lbs down) I will be planning a celebratory vacation and BIG gift for myself - maybe a new car? (doubtful we will want to spend the $$) A surfboard? A bike (I better already have one!!) A kayak? something neato. Also making plans for a new wardrobe.. if I'm at goal I will get to shop, shop, shop for beautiful things!! If not - well, a few new outfits will certainly be warranted. AND.... starting to think ahead to possible plastics. Anybody else have exciting times coming up?? What do you dream of in the months to come?

I have surgery at the end of this month... what I am looking forward to is this... When I am below 200lbs I am going sky diving! For Xmas I am going back home and will get to see friends (who dont know Im having surgery) and my family... I cant wait to see all the *WOWS* I am going to get when I see people who havent seen me since last Xmas! I am also going to *go blonde* before I go home for xmas.. if Im going to have a body makeover, might as well include the hair! Thats about it for now

Okay Missy I cant wait to see what your going to wear for halloween. YOU BETTER POST A PICTURE !

LOL.... heya! Well... by then, I'll prob be okay posting some pics.. I was gonna say, "yah, right!" But.... I'm all about documenting this journey!!!