I know it has been ages since i have been around. I can't even say that i have been lurking. Our Internet provider has changed hands and we get spotty at best Internet now. That and i forgot my password for a while and when i asked to have teh reminder email sent out it never would send. SO i lucked out and finally remembered the right password. For those of you *****member my foster child dilemma... i had five foster kids we were trying to adopt. Well as of September 26 they are all officially our children. The adoption went through and we are trying to live happily ever after. We are now trying to get our move to Texas going. My husbands last day at work is October 26th. NO we do not have another job lined up for him yet... No our house is not sold yet. Yes it is a huge leap of faith. and Yes maybe we are crazy. But i know it is time for us to move on. I am not even as stressed as i thought i would be. I am excited for the new area and being in a bigger city again... i am happy to have a gym nearby again, and NO SNOW!

Pam, Introspection is the hardest thing to do. I am not too thin...yet, but I worry about being where you are later. I have toyed with bulemia and still continue to use this harmful "tool" when I feel guilt over what I eat. It is partly from feeling bad about myself, but also about competition. I look at where others are and long to be there too. But I know realistically that I will never, ever be a size 2 or 4 or probably even a size 10 is unrealistic for me. I am 6 foot tall and not a tiny girl! But I am angry at times over this and I abuse my body one way or the other over this. Before it was with food and fat. Now it is with food and the fact that I can control what stays inside my stomach or not. It is wrong and I know it, but I can't seem to make myself stop. I am glad you posted this. We should all keep aware of our situation. I am looking at counseling again, but last time was a flop. I find it hard to be totally honest with someone who does not TRULY understand like others who have gone through this. Keep fighting the good fight, and I will too. We have come to far to fade away and miss out on the life we deserve. Wendy

Hi Sharyn. That would be a grand idea for us to get together, either centrally located or a favorite spot. Once we see that there is an interest and identify our home states, we can look ahead to June for dates and then select a location. When do you think we should start posting? I wish I could take you with me to Hawaii. I can't believe the time is almost here. Today marks only 6 weeks to my plastic surgery date. YIKES! you too! Lucy

Hey Lucy I didn't know you were going. Please take me in one of your suitcases - I might be able to fit now. We definately need to think of something for June. I want to be able to give people plenty of time to save up. Sharyn

Sorry. Have trouble getting time to get online. But am hoping to change that soon!! In the meantime, I'm struggling with my eating. Eating way more carbs than I should, have gone back to drinking soda, and realizing I'm eating out of boredome as much as anything else. Have gained back about 15 pounds and want desperately to stop it and get back to losing. Still have a good 50+ to get go to get to where I want to be. Haven't really lost anything in 6 months or so. Enough so that my surgeon wants me to come back at next week instead of waiting until my 2 year check-up. But I don't have the $$ to go back right now. UGH!!!! Gotta get this figured out1!!!!! A VERY frustrated... Connie