Debra, I don't know if you have been reading the posts lately, but I for one can tell you that I have been in the same boat. To the point of bulemia! I have been working on it, but it is so hard. Anything I put in my mouth that could be considered "bad" I have to fight the urge not to run to the toilet. This anxiety I think is a part of what we are going through. I watched a show about the 1/2 ton man last night and he lost 700 lbs only to turn around and regain til he weighed 1000 lbs!! I about had a fit! I dreamed all night about failure. Not weight loss failure, just general, but I think it all equals out to the same thing. I haven't reached goal yet either, I haven't even hit onederland yet so it is really hard on me. The excersize is my biggest downfall. I just don't do it, and even though I need to I don't. You are not alone, but knowing that isn't going to solve it for us. I don't know what will, but I am hoping long term it works itself out. Wendy

Yeah Kerri, they are delicious! I went and bought pumkin spice at the grocery store tonite. I had an idea to mix it into my decaf and with some spenda and a little cream it might be really good! And alot less calories, I imagine! I know I will make it into onederland eventually, even if I have to wait for the tt to get there! But it will come. Good thing is that even if I am still over 200, I am so tall, that noone believes that I weigh that much! I do look absolutely normal. I think alot of my extra weight is in the belly skin, I have ALOT of belly skin. It could even be as high as 15 lbs! Which would put me at goal, if that is the case. Wendy

Yeah, things are getting tight around here. We have to save every penny because we might go on strike in the next couple months. That's why we were at the union mtg. It won't be too bad on us I hope if we do, because the union will give me permission to work because I am not a dues payer yet and am "at will" still, until I get my 1040 hours in. I hopefully will be able to pay most of the bills anyway. That is the part that sucks about working for the same company as my husband. If we go on strike, then we both go. Well at least not this time, but if it happens again, then we are both out! We probably will do something fun with the money though, since it wasn't expected. Wendy

Wow... you did good! Too bad dinner didn't set well. This day was probably too low in calories for you. You sure aren't overeating! I usually stop at Starbucks every morning to get my latte. It has three shots of decaf expresso, 5 pumps of sugar free vanilla syrup, and all the rest of the 20-24ish ounch cup is steamed milk (this is where the protein comes in) - I got the nutrition info off Starbucks website. BUT I sometimes make them at home with an expresso machine. Just a cheapie from walmart that makes expresso & steams milk. I buy the sugar free vanilla syrup in a big bottle from Starbucks. I also buy a bag of special expresso ground coffee at Starbucks. It lasts forever. Every time I go to a convenience store where they have those full sugar cappacino's in the machine (where you just push a button & it comes out all mixed) - I get hot tea. I get the ho****er out of the cappacino machine or out of the spout on top of the coffee machine, put three tea bags, one splenda and one half n half in it. That is so much better for me than those 400 calorie drinks. I'm addicted to it. No joke. Today I had: Venti sugar free decaf vanilla latte Blueberry muffin (over a couple of hours) Cup of chili + 2 crackers 4 french fries w/ ketchup Banana Halloween party at work: 2 dorito's, 3 potato chips, a 1" x 2" tiny piece of carrot cake and about a tablespoon of layered bean dip (made me soooooo sick!!!) Venti sugar free decaf vanilla latte About 6 teaspoons of a neighbor's chili while taking the kids trick or treating (too spicy!) a bite size almond joy and then another one later.... this day would have been better if I had a chance to eat a real dinner. lots of hot tea..... one measley bottle of water. I was so aggravated today too because I was so darned busy....I came straight home from work, picked the kids up, took them trick or treating....and BLAM it's 8p.m. and I have to drive other kids home... then BLAM it's 9:00 at night! I was DREAMING about getting back to the house and eating some turkey.... I was soooooooo dehydrated walking around. I really can't believe I didn't think to take a bottle of water with me. duh! Won't make that mistake again! Anyway, it's too late to eat now. I have to get to bed and get up at 5. Bahumbug! Hugs, Pam

Good for you Wendy, I havent won much either and it makes you feel sooo good to finally win. Congrats and do something fun like go to a movie or go out to dinner on it. Lynn