Fighting with Myself!

Hello my AMOS Family, I need to ask for your support, I am trying to hard to keep with weight moving down but it is not happening and when it does it moves so slow. I am sure it is the way I am living or eating! I know I need to get onto the treadmill, I am trying to instill this into my life as I HAVE TO!! it seems to work for 3 days and then I find a reason NOT to do it again! I need some help and I am not sure why I can not make this commitment to myself, I really want to succeed but I don't know why I am doing this to myself!!! so frustrated with ME and I am trying not to be so I don't throw this tool away! I feel like I am just fighting with myself all the time and I am getting tired. I guess it has to do with all the stress from this house is not helping but life is fill of stress so I have to learn to deal with it! Also it seems like when I do good I want to sabotage myself and then eat something I know I shouldn't!! Well any words of support or wisdom would be greatly appreciated!! Debra P

Debra Lots of us are there with you. We have come too far to let this dreaded disease take over again. I feel like we are now like everyone else. It is a struggle and requires concentration and effort to lose each pound. Who ever said this is the easy way out is crazy. This week I'm trying to plan out each day's food intake, and save snacks for the evening that are accounted for. What are you doing? I think if we take care of 1/2 day at a time and succeed there, those days will add up to loss weight. Plan the rest of your day and let's check on how we do tomorrow. Kathy

Kathy, Thanks hun and yes i have my day planned out but I am like you, at night is when I want to "cheat" or eat snacks that are not planned so maybe I need to move around my 1/2 cup popcorn until I am sitting watching some TV with hubby. THANKS for that great idea hun.... maybe I will just keep track of my snacks for night time when I seem to have the problems. I will let you know and THANKS again Debra P

HEY DEB!~ BY no means are you alone. PART of the reason i dont post on the what your eating thread is i feel im screwing up big time. THE weight is creeping sooo slowly now and its hard. FOR me its the afternoon time that i get in that bad snacking mode and its hard cause im serveing the kids here snacks and its so easy to put that stuff in my mouth verse the higher protein legal snacks. I did buckle down strict last week, and then the scale moved so i know i have to stop the PRETZEL snacking in the day and reach for my Glennys Zen chips, stallone puddings or a power crunch bar but im human and i screw up daily. I am okay with the excersise for me going to my local ladies express gym helps. I get out after dinner....i feel paying the money for the gym 29.99 per month keeps me going. I just hate to throw away money. I have since gotten two friends also to join so meeting up with them nightly helps tons too. WERE at a very difficult stage of our surgery, we can eat more and now is the time more then ever to keep making the BEST PROTEIN choices we can. ITS scary and i know im stressing as you. Well dont know if letting you know i battle the SNACK demon (proly more grazing!) and its hard. TOM just arrived today so that will keep me on track. I also vowed if the scale didnt move this week, it did, i was going to do 3 days of protein shakes and clear liquids when the kids were back to school from winter recess,,i did drop some weight so i may not have to resort to that but im still considering doing this for three days. Well talk to you soon love lisa 310/179/???

Lisa, Thanks for your support hun ~hugs~ I post the what are you eating in hopes it will help me stick to my "new way" of life. For the most part I do but the carbs get to me every time! It is a constant battle of wills which I seem to lose most of the time. That and the walking are the things I really need to work on the most. Yeah I might think about doing the shakes again as well just to get my body started again and on the right course. Hun thanks again Debra P

Hi Debra, Dont be too hard on yourself. We all go thru the same things I am sure. I dont exercise much at all and that is the biggest thing I feel guilty about. I do what you do, I say I am going to Curves tomorrow and then it comes and goes and no Curves. I work shiftwork so that is always my excuse. I can never get into a normal routine. I try to do lots more walking and climbing steps at work so at least I do that. I only lost one lb this week so I am going to make a concious effort to watch what I eat this week to see if that helps. Try to stay positive and be proud of how far you have come. Your doing great..

Carla, Thanks for your support in this hun and it seems we find it hard to change the bad habits to good ones but I guess it will come in time. Thanks again Debra P

((((deb))))) unfortunately, this is something we are going to have to deal with everyday for the rest of our lives. whether we have 50lbs to go, 5 lbs to go, meet our goal...this is forever. it is a scary thought, but all we can do is take things one day at a time. set mini goals for yourself, even focus on ONE thing a day. i know what you mean about sabotaging ourselves! i'll give you an example. yesterday, i thought i did pretty good, got in a lot of water. TMI, but i also had to do the enema thing because 5 or 6 days had gone by. so, needless today, i thought for sure i would drop a lb because of that. then what did i do? i got a can of chicken noodle-o's and poured it in a bowl, popped it in the microwave. and i ate nearly 2/3 of it...and to make it worse it was like 11:30 at night! no weight loss this morning and then i am kicking myself because of that dang soup! so, while i don't have any words of wisdom, take some comfort in knowing you are not alone in this battle! hugs~mary jo

Mary Jo, Don't you just hate that.....I do that as well and I just want to stop it! I guess it is all about learning and we should allow our time to learn! Well thank you so much for your support hun Debra P

Hello Debra - I just wanted to jump in and say I am right there with you! I have been struggling for over a month now - and after reading all of these posts I see that Im not alone. How is that Emotional First Aid book that Lisa recommended? I tried to find it @ Borders - but they dont carry it. Have you found it useful in any way? Please know that I completely understand how you are feeling right now - I hope it gets better for all of us! Take care.