DEPRESSED...

Mary Jo, Bless you for bring this subject up. I also feel this way at times, especially when I see pictures or look in the mirror. I still have a lot of weight to lose (At least another 74 lbs) but I have already lost 138lbs. At times, when I look in a miror I feel so fat and almost as if I haven't lost much at all. It is especially hard now that the weight loss is so slow. This morning I put on a pair of pants which were tight when I bought them last week. They are still tight but today instead of feeling like "hey I can get into this smaller size" (which is what I said last week.) my head was saying, "look how tight these pants are. You are a fat cow." I almost took them off and put on my old pants which hang on me and are too big. I think this is a difficult time for many of us. I think this is the time we do need to rely on our support systems. Hang in there we'll get through this, Chip

Hi Mary Jo - just wanted to say how beautiful you are, and to remind you of what an inspiration you are to your family and friends! Your mind will catch up with your transformed body - be patient with yourself!!!!! Take care.

thanks so much, debra. i guess the only thing i can do is be patient and wait for the rest to catch up! hugssssssssss

wow chip, you hit the nail on the head! i am exactly the same when it comes to clothes. clothes that i am nervous about wearing because i think they are too tight, people tell me to buy clothes that are smaller! they say i wear clothes that are too big... maybe i am getting more depressed now because the weight loss is slowing down. that makes sense. scares me to think how i am going to feel about myself if/when i reach goal? thanks so much, we will get thru this, you are right. and you know you have done so great so far! sorry you feel as BLAH as i do! hugsssssssss

Hey Mary Jo, I know how you feel, I feel the same way. I haven't lost as much as you yet, but I'm down about 73 or so pounds. When I get in the bath tub, my stomach rolls look exactly the same to me as they did at 234 pounds. When I look at my clothes...size 10 so far, they look tiny and I can't believe that I fit into them. I hate most pictures because I still look fat. At other times I just start to feel thin but it doesn't usually last long. Hopefully, we will catch up if not, it's a powerful motivator to stay on track. If I feel this way now, I certainly don't want to go back!!! Cindy 234/161/134

thanks cindy, glad to know i am not going loony! gosh i know exactly what you mean about the clothes. whenever i take my jeans off, i look at them like, wow i can't believe i just had these on! i suppose you are right, it is a motivator...i guess part of me is just scared that if i can't be happy now, what IS going to make me happy? all in due time i guess! hugssssssssss

Just want to let you know that you are not alone in this.I feel the same as you do , i have taken countless pictures of myself wanting to update this horriable mug shot i got here!LOL I know i have droped 5 pant sizes, but it dont make a differance in the way i still see myslef in the mirror or in pictures. I do hope in time that our brains will catch up and see ourselves as we are. Keep you chin up , you are doing so great, dawn

thanks, dawn, you are doing great, too. hopefully our brains can catch up! it's getting so bad, i am nit-picking myself to death when i look in the mirror! even to the point where i think my nose is too big or my forehead is too big, etc... it's like my mind won't let me be happy about any part of me! thanks hun, chin is up! hugsssssss

Mary Jo, I'm sorry your feeling bad. I can relate. At times I feel great like a million $$, but at others the low self-esteem seeps back out. There were so many times of being so embarrassed with how I looked that I guess it is just a little soon for it to sink in how different we are on the outside now. Hope your feeling better soon! Karen

i know, karen. i guess because i hated the way i looked for so many years and like you said, being so embarrassed, i just can't get out of that mindset. i do hope with time that this will become easier. hugsssssss