NeRvOuS!! It's the big night.....

One year ago, we had our company Christmas party. Fancy dinner, crazy gift exchange, silly contests, cash bar, DJ, dancing..... The day of last years party, I weighed in at 252. I went out and bought a size 3x black sparkly sweater with flecks of red and green glitter in it. I thought it made me look thinner. I wore it with a pair of size 24 black dress pants and was full of confidence. I thought I looked good. I got up in front of everyone and participated in the games...and danced my booty all over the floor. A few weeks later, the pictures came. That's when I realized that the person inside me....the person I thought I was.....didn't match what was on the outside at all. I felt like a fool. I was humiliated. This year, I am 89 pounds lighter. I bought a size 12 little black dress. I have some cute black heels to go with it. I have no idea what to do with my hair. I have a ton of it...and it's curly.....maybe a 1/2 updo....maybe I'll straighten it....AUGH...I just don't know. The thing is....I'm nervous! Part of me feels like I'm going to go in there thinking I look good....only to find out in pictures later....that I was a fool. OR that I'm going to go in there actually looking better...but being paralyzed by last years episode and not having any fun at all. I've been looking forward to this party....I wanted there to be a HUGE difference between last year and this year. Instead of people looking at me and laughing and saying "oh..my...GOD....look at that THING on the dance floor"....I want them to say positive things. I'm sounding vain, aren't I? I don't mean to be. It's just that I have spent so many years with people making jokes behind my back..within earshot...to my face even.... I just want to "FEEL" whatever the opposite of that feels like. And when the pictures come out this year, I want to be able to look at them and say "ahhh, that really was fun" and not be consumed with humiliation. Does this make sense to anyone? I just needed to get that out in the open. I wonder if anyone else has gone through these emotions. Any tips to get it right? Pam

WELL i know for a fact in your size 12 dress your gonna have a great time at the holiday party. WHEN the photos come out after, your going to be shocked when you see the "SMALL YOU". OUR brain has not caught up with the rapid weight loss and it takes time. GO! have a great time and i bet your gonna look sooo GREAT in this years photos and have the time of your life! HAPPY HOLIDAY PARTY PAM! LISA 310/190/???

You will look wonderful. Don't worry about it. If you feel good inside that is all that matters. You will be able to look at this years pictures and laugh and remember the good time you had and how much better you feel. No matter if we are fat or thin we all still make fools of ourselves at times. Laugh at your past and look happily into your future knowing you look better, feel better and knowing you love that little size 12 dress!!!!! the night away. Deloris

Pam, I have had that same experience seeing pictures after a party and feeling humiliated that I looked the way I did. It is sad because you DID have fun at that party! Anyway, this is a new year. You are going to knock 'em dead and the pictures don't matter, although I am sure you will look beautiful in them. You have a ball! Jo