Discouraged and kinda scared

I'm almost 2 years out. I've been reading all of the positive post about how so many of you are at your goal weights. I feel like that fat kid that has even flunked gastric bypass surgery. My start weight was about 380-390 pounds. My lowest weight since surgery is approx 255-260 pounds. Now today I'm at about 275-280 pounds. I haven't been able to loss and keep it off since my one year mark. I'm really scared of gaining the weight back. I do fine with most meals (even though sometimes I can eat quite a bit) but I want to gaze all day. Cookies are my weakness. Nights are the hardest. I really feel out of control just as much as I did at 390 pounds. I can't seem to get a grip. I keep starting and failing...

I'm with you .... I'm wishing they had removed more intestines. I wish there was some way to have ANOTHER one of these surgeries. You know, if I COULD have taken the weight off by using my willpower I wouldn't have USED the surgery! About March or April of 2007 I went investigating about some type of "help" or additional surgical "second step." I knew I was in trouble when I could eat more than 1 cup of anything at a time... Then when 2 cups became the bare minimum I could eat and be satisfied, I was REALLY worried. You can look at my weight scale. Sugar doesn't bother me, and I wi**** did. Quantity and portion control are my enemy and I wish I could go back to eating the quantity when 1 cup of anything made full. The only words of encouragement I can provide to either you or me... is keep moving. When I stopped going to the spa and running, swimming, and exercising, I gained about 15% of my body weight back! YIKES So I keep a measuring cup hanging up near my plates now.

ok, I have not been checking in for a while but I feel exactly what you two have felt...I also feel so ashamed to contact the doctor and get back to scales... I am sure I back close to 300, I can feel it in my bones. My lowest was about 256 at size 16, I had not seen a size 16 since I was 16 years old. it felt wonderful... now I am back up to size 24 and some are getting tight again. so I am sure that the 26s are soon to follow. I joined a local support group but it is the portion control and lack of dumbing sugar that has really harmed me in the last year... What is our alternatives??? I want to be informed when I go to se ethe doc...(I just emailed him for an appt).. having a hard time...Silly.

Silly How are you doing since you went back to your doctor? I haven't been back to mine for some time now. I also haven't been going to the support meetings and I do know how important they are...Let me know how you are. I am here for you. I had my surgery in June of 05. I have gained about 18 pounds and it is a worry about gaining it all back. It is hard to get the protein in everyday....I am really working hard on it. Some days I don't eat any at all or have water. I have been trying to drink water with flavored diet tea. So far today I might of have 20 oz of water and 20 grames of protein...Fish tonight for supper! Good luck and keep in touch. Hugs Sandy