Scary moment and a warning!

Well I have to tell you all that this week was a wake up call for me! While I was on my trip I decided that I would eat whatever I wanted, thinking that like usual, I would not gain any weight! Well I came home weighing 202 that night! I was down to 194 just a couple of weeks ago! I am sure at least 5 lbs of that was water weight, but it all wasn't! I am now with diligence after a couple of days and really watching my salt intake, back down to 196, but what a scary moment. But also it was a revelation to me that we are not invulnerable to weight gain after wls. I was starting to feel like superwoman, eat a donut who cares? But after this weekend that has all changed. I took a garbage bag out and threw away almost every thing in this house that was crap and went to the store and bought good healthy foods. I am NEVER going to be fat again! I am having my tummy tuck and buttocks lift in just a couple of weeks and do NOT want to stretch all back out again either! So I had to tell anyone who is feeling like straying from the wls way of life, to not go that way! It is very scary waters! Wendy

Hi Wendy darling! First, I have to wish you a Belated Happy Birthday Boy, do I hear you about the eating! I'm happy to say that I am back on track 100% since Monday. I think I would have lost weight with plastics if I didn't graze all that time. I had the hardest time to get the first day down. The longer I am off track, the harder it is to get back on track. I would always say, I can do it, I'll start tomorrow. Well, yesterday's tomorrow is today! I had so many tomorrows, that it makes me sick. I don't want to gain my weight back either. I invested too much in myself. I think about the cost alone that I spent on my body between the WLS and plastic surgery I had, and it's like $40,000.00. Couple that with all the emotional and psychological issues too. I love my life now and will not let food control me. I know it's easier said than done, but I am doing it now! YAY!! Let's keep in touch and support each other. Hugs and Love, Lucy

You are so right! It takes lots of support to win this battle. I am so sick of fighting some days though. It is hard to fight everyday, I am sure you know what I mean. I had kind of hoped that this surgery would fix that and make me "normal". LOL! I guess maybe a lobotomy? I don't know if we are slave to our chemistry or our past, but it sure would be nice to not have the whip at your back all of our lives! I say we just keep plugging away. Maybe one day there will be an answer. But I do know that I have given up trying to not eat. I am eating, but just started buying better choices. I will not avoid fruits and veggies anymore, they fill my need to nibble, but don't seem to put the sodium and calories into me. It seems to be helping. Love, Wendy

Wendy, you're so right! I wish the surgeon could have put in a chip in my brain, not to eat! We just have to take it day by day and of course, come here for support. We've come too far to go back to our old lifestyle. The scary thing is that it is so easy to start the bad food habits again. It's like my old self is trying to come out and stay out and take over me again. I know this sounds wierd! It's like we have two personalities and it's a battle of the strongest! I'm so glad that I have my support meeting tonight. I haven't seen my fellow post-ops since October. I do agree with you about the fruits and veggies. They are way better than the high calorie stuff. I have to tell you that I had eaten a lot of high calorie stuff, like ice cream, donuts, hot cheetos, breads,candy, etc. I also ate and drank at the same time. I hate myself for doing these things. I saw myself getting out of control and it scares the heck out of me. Knowing that I am capable of this behavior is devastating to me. My old self is trying to come out for good. I can't let that happen and I won't. I just couldn't believe how much (volume) food I could eat. I was eating at all hours even at night. Now that behavior is so bizarre. I can say that I have gotten that under control since Monday. I am staying away from all breads, etc. for a while. Protein, veggies and fruit for me. No snacking either. OK, that's my confession. It felt good to write it here for me and everyone to see. I join everyone here, needing support from everyone else. Love, Lucy

Wow, Wendy~ I could have written this post. I'm dealing with EXACTLY the same thing. I ate pretty much what I wanted, in small quantities, of course and didn't gain anything through Christmas. But last week, I put on 3 lbs.!!! Soooo frustrating. I've had an inner ear issue which has made me extraordinarily dizzy for the last week and a half, so I haven't exercised at all. There's a small possibility of being pregnant, so I can't take the Sudafed that the doctor wanted me to take to open the tube in my ear. Thus, I put lbs. on. You're in a better place than I am, currently, because I can't bring myself to throw out all of the leftover goodies. I keep telling myself that I'm just using up the extras from Christmas, which is true. But, I don't seem to be able to control myself very well. Let's just keep trying, our mantra shall be NEVER Give Up!! Blessings to you as you get ready for your tummy tuck. Hugs, Kerri

Thanks Kerri, I really need the support right now. I am very stressed with surgery coming up and work is very stressful. I find myself wanting to eat all the crap under the sun! I hope you feel better soon! Wendy

Hijack: Kerry love your picture so pretty. The 4th is coming up quickly can't wait to walk my first 5k. Monica

Hi Monica~ I was thinking of you yesterday as I did my last prep walk...12.4 miles. All I can say is OUCH!!! I've been sick for about the last 3 weeks and haven't been able to train. I wasn't even sure that I would be able to participate. But, since I was able to finish the 12, 13 isn't that much more. You must be sooo excited!! It looks like there's going to be a massive amount of people there!! I would love to hook up after, but it looks like our starting times are about an hour apart, and I'm guessing it will take me about 4 hours to complete it, so I know that you'll be done WAY before me!! I'm thrilled for you~ I did my first 5K last year about this time. It's going to feel amazing to go across that finish line! Speaking of pics~ yours is great! You look like you're feeling good... Congrats on all of your successes, my fellow Junebug! Hugs, Kerri