Checking in and owning up ....

Hey gang, A lot of us have disappeared. I'm guessing for lots of reasons. I have been really struggling. FOOD. AUGH. WHY must it rule my life????? I have been soooooooo bad....so far off the straight and narrow. Yesterday I ate: Venti SF Vanilla Latte Banana 6" sub (the whole thing!!!!) Salt N Vinegar chips SEVEN (that's SEVEN!!!) pepperidge farms oatmeal raisin cookies (130 cal EACH) another banana TWO plates of fruit and a bag of dark chocolate M&Ms That's just an EXAMPLE of how I've been acting lately. Of course, I didn't want to get on the scale. But I made myself get on it this morning. Guess what? I gained 5 pounds!! So today, I tried much harder to be good and i'm proud of myself today. I made a wrap (these wraps have 13g protein, 8 fiber, 7 net carbs, 140 calories) Add ham n cheese and these things are PACKED with protein. on the wrap, i put: deli ham, cheese, and a tiny bit of chipolte ranch. I rolled it up and cut it into four sections. I put two sections in a container and took both containers to work, along with a low carb yogurt. At 10:30 I ate two sections (or half a wrap) at about 2:30, i ate the other two sections. At 4:00, I ate my yogurt. At 5:00 I had two hershey kisses (ok not perfect - but I gave ALL the rest of them AWAY) and for dinner, I made another wrap and ate 1/3 of the wrap and gave the rest to my son. And i'm still alive. I have GOT to get back on track - it's so easy to forget that this is for LIFE sometimes. Especially when we are surrounded by people who are not like us. We begin to conform to those around us. We just CAN'T allow that to happen. (I'm pointing fingers allllll in my own face here). Suddenly, I have to remind myself "I am a gastric bypass patient and i need to behave like one" How is everyone else coping right now? We need to bond together find strength in numbers!! hugs, Pam

Pam, Sounds like you have had a difficult time lately. I guess we all must face our own old demands with food! I have been grazing.....can't seem to curb it! I am still okay with my weight...in fact my surgeon and PCP want me to gain weight! I am down to 120 pounds and I had to promise them that I would lose any 4 pounds ago.....so that means I am down 4 pounds since I saw them last. They think that I am anorexic...but they don't see me eat. Granted I don't eat much but I do eat. typical day..... 1/2 container of yogurt for breakfast with a couple of spoonsful of granola sprinkled on....then I have a salad with 2 oz of turkey and about 1/8 cup of cheese crumbles around 4. I have about 6 strawberries around 9 and then maybe 4 fat free wheat thin crackers with natural peanut butter on them. I end up in the bathroom if I eat anything with fat in it. I also dump with sugar. I even have trouble with the sugar alchohol making me sick. I can only eat turkey...everything else makes me throw up or gives me the runs......so what do they expect me to do? Sorry to go on but you asked how I am coping! Hope that you have a great holiday season! Sue 325/130 goal/120 now

HI PAM! as you know from our recent chatting i am in a very similar boat as you! WHY the heck does food rule my life so much! I hate it . I think i finally went over board and got totally sick from some naughty cookies i ate the other day, i dumped and was so glad i did because that will help me to stay on track and not keeping slipping something here and there. SO im hopeing that will get me on track. SUE, in talking with pam last night cause i get sick from foods rather often ( the ones im supposed to eat....and she suggested that i take papaya enyzme before my meals she knew of someone useing them for foods that dont sit right. SO maybe you can benefit from this as well being they dont want you to loose anymore weight. JUST a thought i have to try it myself..thing is would like to loose more weight so who konws. SO i am remindeing myself today "I TOO AM A GASTRIC BYPASS PATIENT and i NEED TO BEHAVE LIKE ONE", this is a way of eating for life. whos next???? PS: i am gonna be gathering with my OH NY forums friends today for a holiday gathering. I am very much looking forward to this gathering! AT least I know this party will be WLS friendly and not filled with temptations there will be plenty for me to have

Sorry I haven't posted, just been really busy. Lifes problems got in the way but need to make time for this. At least a couple times a week. This is important, I am important!! I need to come first at times. This is one of those times. Yes, I am in the same boat at you are. I lost way too much and was told to put weight back on so I did and yes, I over did. I need to lose 6 pounds now if not 9. I don't dump much unless I overeat so I can eat about anything. I sure don't want to be one of the ones that gain it all back. I can't feel sorry for myself because I am doing it to myself. I am back into my 6's and 8's but don't want to go to the 10's. Boy have you realized how easy it is to gain and lose right now. At least it is for me. Depending on what I eat I jump up and down on that scale like crazy. Wonder if this is a step in stabilization? I was sick for a couple days and wow I dropped 8 pounds, got better and gained 4 in a day. I think my scales are crazy. I am going to start keeping track again of everything I eat. I think this will help because it makes me aware that I have to be accountable. If I don't keep track I just lose all sense of calories and fat. Began my exercise routine again and I am determined to get my weight back to where I belong. I am leaving for 3 days to see my sister. But I will be back!!! Deloris

This is a bad time for us. Especially with the holidays coming. Yesterday I spent all day making Christmas goodies for other people and did not eat a thing, but of course you have to "taste" a bite of this and that. So that is what I did, all day long. It really did not add up to much calorie wise but it made me feel sick and then when I did eat I ate a Wendy's bacon cheeseburger (sans most of the bun). then 6 chicken honey crusted nuggets at home later and a couple of handfuls of popcorn smothered in real butter!! And forget fluids! Hardly a drop for 2 days! So crap, crap, crap! I woke up today promising to do better and get my fluids up before I end up in the hospital dehydrated again. Good luck guys! We do need to stick together Pam. Wendy

Hi Pam. I just had to respond to your post. For the past 6 weeks prior to surgery, I was grazing all day long and eating all the wrong foods in larger quantities. I just went nuts. I am so glad that now my pouch got tighter again with the surgeries. I am going to take advantage of this situation as it won't last too long. Now is the time for me to be on track. I get so full with the smallest amount of food. I am happy with that. I don't know what it was; perhaps the stress of the upcoming surgery and my work situation. I went into my old behaviors and I know it has to stop. I did gain some weight back and hopefully now, it will come off again. I have to gain control over my eating. I just have to! Thanks for sharing. I can feel for you as I am going through the same thing. Take care! Love, Lucy