FRIDAY Accountability

Thank you Alesia for keeping this going!! I'm sorry I haven't been in here. I'm on a desperate search to find another job. It's so difficult because I have worked with these people for so long and truly love them - but the cir****tances have just changed so much that it's in the best interest of my family (and me) to make the change. And making it even harder.... I'm so dang picky!! I feel like since I don't HAVE to leave where I'm at....I can be as picky as I want to be about where I go. Yet...I feel sorta like a time bomb ticking.... I cried at work TWICE this week just from the stress and here it is a three day weekend and I brought a ton of work home with me. The kids got out of school early today because of Ernesto... the big boss let everyone out at Noon...but the guy I work for didn't let us do that. So, I leave a half hour early and before I go... he says "see you Tuesday morning and be ready to hit the ground running next week." (he was out of the office two days this past week) AS IF I sat on my tuffet all week and did NOTHING and was a slacker for leaving a 1/2 hour early!!!! AUGH!!!! He has NO IDEA. OHHHHHH I just won't even go down this road anymore today.... just please pray for me to find that perfect job. Yesterday: Venti Triple decaff sugar free Vanilla latte Vanilla Almond Biscotti The chicken salad off an Arby's market fresh sandwich A banana Freakin PB M&Ms (got sick this time though) soooooo stressed Venti Triple Decaff sugar free Vanilla latte Vanilla Almond Biscotti a cup of apple jacks Bad..... I know.... get's worse.... TODAY Venti triple decaff sugar free vanilla latte vanilla almond biscotti Banana Trail mix: one protein ball, PB M&Ms, Pizza combos, peanuts (about 1/2 cup to 3/4 cup) Venti triple decaff sugar free vanilla latte vanilla almond biscotti A slice of veggie lover thin N crispy THREEE domino's brownie bites the topping off a bacon cheeseburger pizza slice two bbq chicken wings (GOT SICK) How can I get my mind and emotions to stop ruling my mouth? I'm telling you.... it's like I get depressed and SELF DESTRUCTIVE. This has GOT to change. Love you all.... hope everyone else is doing better..... somebody come kick me!! Pam

Hi Pam, Very sorry to hear about your job woes, can only say, been there, done that...My kids had school canx on Friday due to Ernesto ( live on the coast of NC just above Wilminton, and we had HEAVY flooding, rain and wind)...I still had to go to work though, I'm an insurance agent, these times mean even more work in my day than usual and 1st Friday of the month is always crazy anyway...Keep your chin up looking for work and I will keep you in my thoughts... Friday: B- granola cookie pb power crunch protein bar S- 1 oz lf chedder 10 sm butter pretzels L- 1/2 to 3/4 cup chicken cobb salad from Quizno's w/ honey mustard dressing 1/4 of a piece of flatbread D- 2 garlic wings 6 fried cheddar cheese balls 2 good bites of a ham & turkey club on a croisant 4-5 french fries S- 2 pieces sf choc Must be getting close to my period, the chocolate monster has really been rearing its ugly head and I've been snacking alot on sf choc - good for the bowel movements, not such a good diet choice... Alesia

Pam, I am struggling too. This 3rd shift thing kicks your a**!! I eat ok during the day and then while I am awake at night I want pop and sweet stuff!!!! Yesterday 1 protein coffee 2 sf jello with a little whipped cream 1 sf popsicle a handfull of chips and salsa and the meat out of a chimichanga- barfed it up (does that still count?) 3 bites of battered fish and a few bites of scalloped potatoes. too much trail mix with nuts and fruit and candy pieces 5 pretzels 1 latte I hate 3rd shift. One of the girls I work with had wls too and she is constantly drinking pop and eating candy and it is such a bad influence on me. It is a good thing I am only part time!! Wendy