Monday Accountability

Ya ever have just a downright bad, emotional day??? Between TOM, no sleep last night, and still getting over this virus.....AND having an all out stressful day of being pulled in every possible direction trying to please a whole boatload of people.... I swear I almost had a major meltdown today... actually i did have a meltdown. I had to go cry in one of my co-workers cubicles and then go straighten up. I NEVER cry at work. Anyway, this day has proven to me that I still have emotional eating issues. I'm owning up to it...writing it down for all to see...and hopefully being held accountable will keep me from doing this again. Venti triple decaf sugar free vanilla latte 20g Protein Vanilla almond Biscotti 3g Protein Protein balls 10g Protein 1 beef taco 10g Protein? here's the bad part....after my crying episode... 1 pack of Peanut butter M & Ms....and I didn't dump! A banana 1g Protein Shredded crock pot chicken w/ green beans 20g protein Venti Triple decaff sugar free Vanilla latte 20g Protein Chocolate hazlenut biscotti 3g Protein 87 grams of protein. (I didn't bother to read the M&Ms to see how much protein was in them) About 1600-1700 calories today. I can not believe myself. I've been thinking about it and when i bought that dag blasted candy, I was sooooo down it was almost as if I had this "I don't care what happens to me" attitude - self-destruction mode - suicide by food. I just can't go back to acting that way again. how's everyone else doing? Hugs, Pam

((((((((((pam)))))))))))))) sorry you had such a poopy day. and i don't mean your eating, i mean you feeling so yucky. i don't like to see you sad. now, don't feel so awful about those darn m&ms, your day doesn't look so bad to me! would you feel better if i told you i ate 1/2 molasses cookie from starbucks? 1/2 of one of those HUGE cookies? and it was damn good! mmmm mmmm mmmm aside from that, my day was still pretty bad. -venti iced ff sf vanilla latte -handful of lays salt and pepper chips (my mom had them and i HAD to try them) -slice of munster cheese -about 6 spoons of mac and cheese i swear, my eating gets worse by the day.... hugs~mary jo

My usual daytime stuff...... 4 oz shrimp with about a quarter of a cantalope for supper. 3 pieces SF candy and a SF ice cream bar (big bunch of wasted calories there) never did get my last 16 oz of fluids in

Hi Pam. Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that you weren't feeling better and had a rough day at work I read over your list of foods and it's not so bad! I think I ate more than you did.. I had a great start to the day and when I got home from work... well here it goes: Large cup of coffee with hazelnut flavored creamer. B- Cappucino AchievONE drink - 20 g protein L - Green salad with tomato and onions and Stallone chocolate pudding hi protein - 20 grams protein Weigh****chers Peanut Butter Pie - I actually ate both servings, one when I got home and I added peanut butter to it! The other one I ate with my dinner. Two cookies - vanilla sandwich pastry like cookies...too much fat content! I got rid of the rest of the cookies and brought them to work to feed the doctors! At least 10 crackers and 2 rice cakes with some lo fat salsa spread. D - 90% lean beef patty with cabbage leaves about 21 grams of protein. S - Two boxes of raisins (medium size) I didn't have any of my vitamins for the day. I upped my exercise by another 10 minutes on the Gazelle at night. I did my morning exercise - 5 minutes on the elliptical and 20 on the Gazelle rider before work. Did another 10 + 5 on the Gazelle after work. I didn't feel good after dinner and why in the world did I eat the raisins??? Today I'm feeling better and on track and will stay there! I think I might be doing the emotional eating with my ps consult on Thursday. I will keep this in check!! I think the accountability here is a good thing! Boy, I haven't confessed like this before. Thanks Pam! Feel better my friend! Lucy

Hi Pam and All other Players: Its Tuesday, a.m., and time to own up for yesterday...It was actually a good day, I'm proud of myself - always do better during the week...Pam, you're food looks pretty good to me, the only pattern I see is those biscotti, I read the label on it at SAMS and they don't even seem all that bad either, just empty carbs and sugar, but everyone needs a splurge ( mine is the free sugar cookies @ our local grocery store bakery, they call me everytime) Now the food: B - fruit protein shake S- 1 oz lf cheddar & 10 sm butter pretzels L- 2 to 3 oz smoked sausage w/mustard & 1/2 c green beans S- 2 cherry essence prunes D- 3 oz shake n bake pork chop, peas n carrots, & a bite of stroganoff noodles S- sliced banana sprinkled with splenda and 2 tbsp pb to spread on it the usual liquids and vitamins ( I really am happy with how I keep up with these, never was good about drinking or taking meds pre-surgery) Alesia