So Close to Goal

Good morning everyone! I weighed in at weigh****chers yesterday and can't believe that I lost more since my visit with my surgeon on Thursday!!! I'm down to 163.4 pounds! YIPPEE! I have only, drumroll please... 3.4 pounds to GOAL! I think what has helped me now is restarting my exercise again since I had my hernia surgery. Remembering back to my childhood, I remember being in the 160's when I was in 7th grade. I wasn't even a teenager, so being an adult at this weight is shocking to me. I think that is why my family thinks I'm looking anorexic. No one ever saw me as an adult at 163 pounds. I'm having that image problem too. Not that I'm anorexic, but I still see myself at 485 pounds. I know it's going to take awhile to match my head with my body. Now I'm starting my plastic surgery journey. I'm going to one on Thursday and think I'm going to have surgery around Thanksgiving time. I'll keep you posted. It's sort of scary, having a stranger look at me naked with all of my excess and wrinkled skin! By the time I'm through with all of my doctor appointments, I will not be ashamed anymore That's a small price to pay for the improvement I will have. My weigh****chers goal is 155 pounds, only because if I want to work for them I have to be within the weight range for my height. 155 pounds is the most I can weigh for my height. I will get there if not before plastic surgery, definitely after surgery. That's all for now. Have a wonderful Sunday and new week! Hugs, Lucy 484.8/383.4/163.4/160 pre-surg/surg day/current/goal Loss since WLS is 220 pounds

you have done so awesome, lucy!!! so much you have accomplished, it is truly amazing. i am proud myself, but when i see success stories like yours, it makes me so proud of you! best of luck with your PS journey. make sure we get all the updates! hugs~mary jo

Hi Mary Jo! Thanks for your response. You should be proud of yourself and accomplishments. This was not an easy way out for us to gain control and lose weight. I am proud of everyone on this board and website and their successes. My life has been hard and difficult. I've been alone since I moved out of my parents house. My life centered around food and the comfort it brought me. This is a new and somewhat scary lifestyle for me. As much as I am healthier and happier, I am charting in unknown territory - a scary thing indeed! I will keep my friends here posted on my plastic surgery experience. Thanks again and hugs, Lucy

WOOO HOOO Lucy!!!!! I'm soooo excited for you!! And what a wonderful thing it would be for you to work at weigh****chers. And to be 155... All I can say is WOW!!! Keep it up!! It must feel really good to be able to exercise again. Not only physically, but mentally as well. Love ya! Kerri

Hi Kerri! It does feel good to be able to exercise again Sitting around didn't help with my weight loss. I am stronger day by day. Sometimes I feel like I have so much more to lose, but that's not the case. I am still fearful of gaining any weight. I feel like if that happens that I'm a failure. I know that's not true but with my past history, it speaks for itself. I know what I weigh but sometimes I don't feel like I'm small. Now I find it hard with comments from my family telling me that I should eat more and I lost enough weight and enough is enough. All I have left is skin and bones.... I am getting uneasy with them looking at me all the time. It was better when I wasn't noticed. Now I feel like I want to hide from them. How weird is that! Of course, my tool works and still lets me know when I eat too much! I still want to be able to eat like I did but can't.. The only way I could eat as much is by grazing all day long, small amounts of food. I won't do that to me. I am scared of maintenance, a brand new uncharted territory . It's going to be a day by day challenge and I will have to keep on top of it every day. Oh well, time to get off my soapbox! Again, thanks for your response. Love Ya Right Back! Lucy

YEAH!!!! That's so awesome Lucy!!!! You are doing great! Wow, you are going to be at goal any second now! It is kind of scary to think about maintenance isn't it? I totally freaked when I hit goal and realized that I needed to figure out how to stay put. It was such a mind twister for me.... all this time, my sucess was measured by the numbers going down on the scale. BUT at goal you can't measure success that way anymore. So it's like re-learning the definition of success. When I was watching the numbers drop on the scale, I felt in control - empowered. I've had to re-work all of this in mind. NOW, since my goal is to stay between 125-130.... I am learning to feel empowered and in control by watching my scale fluctuate between these numbers..... I see it get up to 128 and I adjust to bring it back to 125... and i just keep doing it over and over again. So now, I'm learning to feel success and empowerment in that. This makes me feel in control and i need that so badly where the weight is concerned. That "being in control" thing is what is driving my desire to get back to the basics and the protein train again. I don't want to give myself too much lattitude and get lost along the way!!! Geez...what am i doing....writing a book on your post!?! I just wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS!!! (all that other stuff was about understanding your fears about maintenance) Love ya Luce.... Pam

Good morning Pam! It's so good to hear from you. I guess taking control is what it is all about. This has been the hardest thing to control in my life. That's why I needed the surgery and its tool. I'm glad the tool still works. It sure is better to manage a few pounds gain and get it into check, then letting it go and gaining 10-20-30+ pounds. I think that is the key to maintenance. Yes, I will have weight fluctuations; I do now. What matters is that I watch the weight carefully, then take action to get back to where I want to be. It will be a different game to play. Oh well, now my saga with plastic surgery. Yikes, in 4 days I will be going to the plastic surgeon. I don't like the get naked part, but it's necessary! I'm hoping for ps either the week of Thanksgiving or right after. That makes it 3 months away... I'll be counting the days I know it will be worth it in the end. OK, now I've got to stop writing! Have a wonderful and exciting day! Love ya too Pam! Lucy