HEYYYYYYYY!!!! (long...)

just sayin' "hey" ya'll!! Awwwwww..... Mj & Tiff!! you thought of me??? You guys are the best... I miss everyone here so much! I check in on everyone when I can - but never have time to hang out and post anymore. I've been working my tail off. It's really having an effect on me too. It sucks. I've been a little down lately too. Between work (working OT and training) and home (cleaning, cleaning, cleaning and never getting anywhere) I have been totally missing out on the summer. So much stress lately. I've been debating on looking for a new job, but I think I'm just gonna plow through this phase and keep the faith. Plus, I missed my B12 shot TWICE now... and man - I am feeling it. The sublinguals just don't seem to cut it with me. I'm so worn out - for the first time in my life I actually feel like I could fall asleep just driving down the road and I'm normally the LAST person to sleep in a car. It's bad. And i think something is funky with my tummy - like maybe an ulcer or something. It's hard to describe, but it just isn't right. Seems like everything bothers it. Sometimes it just downright hurts and my belly is bloated. AND one of my fillings fell out - and I've been so busy that i haven't been able to get to the doctor OR dentist. When it rains, it pours. I've GOT to get my s*it together! So yea, I'm down in the dumps a bit. MJ - I hope you can find that perfect job soon. I worry about you ... I know if I stayed home, I wouldn't eat like I should - I would barely eat - I don't know why that is, that's just how I am at home. But when I get around others - I tend to eat more normal. I just worry that you might not be getting enough nutrition in. I love ya, girl... just want to make sure you are okay. Oh, you better get lots of pics of your son playing football. It's so fun to watch them play!! and gosh, they just grow up so fast. Tiff, I'm sorry to hear about your divorce. That is hard. (((hug))) BUT congrats on your upcoming surgery!! Wooo HOOOOO you are gonna LOVE the results!! I'm so happy with mine....really happy. Man, you got a good price!! Wish i could go back and do the tummy and thighs...but that ain't happening anytime soon. Your pics are AWESOME girl!! WOWIE!!! I'm suppose to get together with some OH girls from around MD, VA (and I think SC) in Baltimore this weekend to go out for a much needed night of fun. I'm really looking forward to it - I just hope I can WAKE up for it and nothing else goes wrong before then!! I'm scared to death this tooth is gonna start hurting. I need to update my pics too. I got my hair cut shorter and I'm all healed up and the girls don't look anything like those pictures anymore.... but I don't know when I'll get to do it! My weight is very very settled. I range between 124-128. Haven't lost anything in months - but I eat between 1400-1800 calories a day. So I'm happy with that. Like I heard a comedian say on TV - "I can eat AND be sexy!" Well, in my own mind anyway! Anyway, I love you Junebugs and I miss you. I hope everyone is doing well and I hope to be able to come back in here more often. You know, I think being active in here really does help with this journey. Seems so much tougher since I've been away. Hugs, Pam

Good to see you Pam! I have missed you! Sorry to hear all of the bad. I hope things get better for you soon. I too have had a busy summer. I had to squeeze some fun into it! This weekend we are suppossed to go to a theme park, but I hope I feel up to it with the queasies and all! I feel like I have the worst morning sickness ever on and off all day. Yuck! But the funny thing...I seem to be able to stomach only crap I shouldn't eat! LOL! If I eat protein products I am deathly ill. But I ate a Krispy Kreme this morning and nothin'!! I figure I am only getting in about 400 calories a day right now so what the heck, huh? Try to have some fun and call the dentist! Wendy

HEY PAM! what crazies in your life... want to touch base with you on few topics on your post. YOUR not getting your b12 shots in you mentioned. I know myself and SHELLEY are both useing the nasal NASCOBAL and are finding it gives us so much energy...and we dont have to find time to get into the doctor to do. IF you check out the mfg's website they reimburse copays. WORTH checking into.....!!!!! DONT want you falling asleep while driving. NOW on to ULCEr...as you know i was scoped end of JULY and ULCER was found. UNFORTUNATELY mine was having a bleed thats how we discovered it. BUT if I look back over the months i definitely had warning signs that i ignored. I had an odd pain in my stomach ( usually when empty) so i always learned when I got this i had to eat...now my mistake was being i had this from early out was this was my hunger...feeding it made it feel better. DROP me an email or PM and we can discuss this more... but i also had foods that didnt sit in my pouch also which were indications of ulcer! GO FIGURE. I am on nexium now and guess what i dont get that pain...now i have to break eating habits...thats why i was alway needy to eat the mini meals alot thru a day was to ease the uneasy pain in my pouch. Well glad you updated us! AND im waiting for the new pics with a new hairstyle. I am battling blues being i cant seem to loose weight and im eating to much now scares me to death. hugzzzz lisa

*****HIJACK!!********* Dang Lisa, my fellow JuneBug, I'm just hanging out this morning catching up on all the posts and I see your updated profile pic. DAMN!!! YOU LOOK GREAT GIRL!!! SO DIFFERENT!!! SO BEAUTIFUL!!! I mean you were always beautiful but your confidence shines through! I'm so happy for you...and I'm so inspired by you! YOU GO GIRL! Yours in 179 pounds down, Jen

Hi Pam~ Sounds like your life has been really crazy!! I've missed seeing you on the boards. Sorry to hear about the tough stuff...work, B-12, tummy, etc. But, I'm thrilled to hear that you are going to be meeting some OH gals this weekend. How fun for you!! Try not to wait until your tooth starts hurting before getting it fixed. The pain can be awful. Also, it won't take long for the lack of B-12 to catch up with ya! I liked Lisa's idea for the nasal B-12. I've been taking the sublinguals since surgery and am okay with those, but if I ever need to switch, that sounds like a great alternative. I can't wait to see your new pics. Let us know as soon as they are up! I just celebrated my 38th birthday yesterday. Hubby and I had a fun time at the beach, going back to where we got engaged. It was great to see how much easier it was to walk around town and on the beach. I wasn't exhausted going up the stairs~ a miracle in and of itself! We have an adoption info meeting tomorrow, and will be trying for our own biological children after I've completed the 1/2 marathon in October. We'll see what doors God opens up. Come back soon and keep posting...we miss ya! Hugs, Kerri