11 Month Stats

Today is 11 months post-op for me. I wanted to post my stats. I am still not at goal. I set a goal of 138 for me. The closest I got was 139.5. This lasted for about two days. Just when I was about to claim that I was in the 130's I quickly climbed back up to 140. I then stayed there for about a week and a half. However, when I weighed in today. I was up to 141.5 today so I am going to have to claim this as my current weight. This is really strange because I biked 30 miles on Saturday, and I felt that I would lose. However, the more I work out the more I crave to eat, and I find myself eating for frequently---smaller meals, but I think my body needs this for extra energy. So here are the stats---I am starting to think that my body likes the 140's so this might be where I am suppose to be really. Height 5 '6 1/2 Weight at Time of Surgery - 244 Measurements at time of Surgery: Calf -19 inches Upper Leg - 29 Upper Arm - 16 1/2 Breast - 44 inches Waist - 40 inches Hips - 49 inches Weight on 05/22/06 - 141.5 Total Pounds lost - 102.5 pounds Total Inches Lost - 60 inches This month pounds lost - 1.5 pounds This month inches lost - 1 inch Calf Measurment - 15 inches Upper Leg - 20 inches (lost 1 inch) Upper Arm - 11 Breast - 32 Waist - 26 1/2 Hips - 34 3 1/2 pounds from goal Sizes - Dress Size 6 Skirt Size - 2 Pants Sizes - 6 and some 4's When I look at the measurements, I am amazed at the number of inches lost. Sometimes I forget about how far I have come really...I get hung up on those three little pesky pounds---I am fixated at getting the scale in the 130's and keeping it there, but in reality I have really accomplished more than I ever thought I would with this surgery. I remember saying before surgery that I would be happy to get in a size 10 clothing---now I wearing some size 4's. Yet...sometimes I feel that I have not met my goal because I am fixating on that one number 138. Please send out some positive energy. I would still like to make 138 by June 22nd. However, if this does not happen for me and I stay in the 140's then send out some energy so that I can make Peace with my body and accept myself for who I am in the moment and to be ok with me. I want to reach a truce with my body once and for all. I think I am coming close, but there is always that little voice that says I should be this or that...... How is everyone else doing? I am terrified of my recent ability to eat more food. Does this scare the hell out of anyone else? I don't want to start gaining. Let me know how May turned out for you.....Take care---Diana

Great job! I too hate that I can eat more, especially since I still have over a hundred pounds left to lose. It makes you wonder if you'll get even close to goal. Exercise does make me hungrier as well.

It sounds like you have done fantastic to me. However, alot of us are struggling with body image. I realized this early on and have gotten myself into therapy. This will be a continuing problem for awhile, until we adjust to the new life. It takes time I think. I don't know when you make that transitionsition mentally from a "fat" person to a thin one, but I know alot of the long term post ops seem to eventually get there. Good luck Wendy