I want to scream!

Why is everything around me about food..all the time, Family comes into town and of course we are going out to dinner. Someone gets a new job offer, we are out to dinner and now I'm sitting here in my house where I just made brownies for tomorrow and I just want to scream. I haven't been working out because it is so stinkin cold here I can't stand to go outside. I feel like all I do is EAT and the scale is showing it. I have went up 2lbs. I'm freaking out. Is this is?? I want to go hide in a hole where people don't care so much about food! I'm really starting to hate the holidays and they just started. People are talking to me about making chocolates and all this crap. I want to say "People, don't you understand I don't want to live like this" I am so enjoying the new me I feel like people around me don't understand or don't care that I have been thought a lot to get where I am today. I NEVER want to go back. Arg..Screaming Rebecca

Hang in there Rebecca! My sister-in-law knew we were driving down here (takes us 9 hours), she knows about my surgery and has decided to wait for her kids' friends so they're not eating until 7pm tonight. WTF??? So, I told Mark that we'll take his folks to Cracker Barrel and go to the sister's around 8 to exchange gifts. Either that or I just sit there sipping water. My darling grandfather made chocolate chip cookies and left them in my mailbox. My poppop is a FABULOUS cook! I blame him for my chubbiness as a child. LOL I did have one cookie and made Mark hide them from me. It's a shame that people revolve around food. My family knows we'll have a healthier Christmas dinner this year (we host) and they're pretty excited about it. You've come a long way Baby! Don't let people or the holidays get you back into that horrible food cycle. Be strong! Do some exercising inside. I bought Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Waistline. I've lost 2 inches off my waist in just 2 weeks! When it gets really bad, come find us!!!!! Sending good vibes your way! * Cyndi *

Well, sounds like you have a good plan that works for you , and you know I think it is ok for us to be selfish and taking time for US!!! But it does take time for others to get used to the new us! I am fortunate to have a lot of support with my family that is here and at work. In fact sometimes I forget about the new me. Last night I had to take my son to the ER with breathing difficulty....and I am standing there shaking....scared for him but my coworkers were looking at me and just smiling. See I wear what are now VERY baggy scrubs at work but I came in there with a fitted (never would I have worn that before) shirt and size 16 jeans that are already big in the waist but look great in the legs and they were just amazed and happy for me, and that is a wonderful feeling. I am looking forward to a wonderful (though slightly tired with just 2 hors sleep) day!!!!! Donna

Cyndi is right.......you just need to be you! Perhaps it just takes others to catch up. If I had gone home to my side of the family I would be dealing with a lot of the same things that you are. However instead I took charge and I am cooking and since I get the satisfaction of cooking for others it does not bother me the FOOD. Sure I eat things and pick where I shouldn't but when I am busy cooking I never wanted to eat before surgery. Also I am controlling the menu and am making options I can eat!!!! So that is how I am getting around it. Hang in there and just be firm.....you have to do what works for you! For me I have replaced my desire for food by feeding others LOL! I can't eat it but I cook and other people eat it.....teachers at school, work, family. So that is how I am changing that habit! But that is how I am getting out of my old bad habits! Making changes to hep this tool work and last the rest of my life because no matter what I will not go back!!!!! Hope you have a wonderful day!!! Donna

Hugs for you, Rebecca! It will be okay. Hang tough!!