6 weeks out today!
I'm 6 weeks out today and I am not able to resume my normal diet for life. I'm not eating as much should go up to 1/3 to 1/2 a cup at a time.
For breakfast I could have had toast or anything but I chose to have bean and bacon soup lol. That was 2 stages ago. Funny if you would have asked me 2 weeks ago I would have said I was never going to eat a mushy thing again but now I don't feel that way. I'm trying to sick to what I know if good for me and has some/most protein in it.
Ok I want to talk about something that I have noticed and see what you all think.
My hubby and other people around me have been SO supportive but I have noticed that I still feel really lonely. I feel like I have no one around me that I can hang out with that understands how or what I'm doing. Thank god for Jamie, we talk on the phone almost every day and I really look forward to it. I wish people lived closer we could meet up and do stuff.
Ok enough from me about his. I hope you all are doing great!
Rebecca
I've been trying to find a local support group but haven't found one yet. I think it would be great to meet up with others face to face. For some reason I have been craving social time. Which is weird because I've been so isolated for the last several years.
I've been sticking with soft stuff too.
Patti
Hi Rebecca,
Everytime I try to eat normal food, I panic and go back on liquids for a few days because I am scared to eat because I am afraid I will eat too much like the shrimp I ate the other night. I feel really lonely too and usually I am very talkative but I have been really quiet because I don't fit in since the world revolves around food. I know exactly how you feel.
The other night I went to a barbecue with my husband and I sat and watched everyone munching on nachos and drinking wine as I sat and drank water and just felt like I did not want to be there at all.
We are in this together honey.
Love ya,
Esther
I don't really think I feel lonely...but I do feel left out of "social events" sometimes........because food is always involved. I've been working quite a bit...so it hasn't been a huge issue. I talk to my angel on the phone at least a couple times a week--and we usually end up talking for hours on end. Love that girl. She only lives about 20 minutes from me...but somehow we never manage to get together. We need to work on that!
As for food...I'm SOOO ready to move on. I've started trying chicken here in the last couple of days and it sits very well with me as long as I eat slow...and chew very well. It's a great way to get protein in. I told my surgeon and he wasn't concerned. I also told him about struggling with protein--and he gave me the go ahead to try different protein bars. Whatever suits me. So I'll let you all know. My one month post op was today...I've lost 34 lbs since surgey.......he said he was very pleased. He said I've lost 17% of my excess body weight already. Yay! My only struggle right now is getting in enough protein/water when I'm at work. Today I've been having muscle spasms in my legs and tingling. I'm afraid I'm dehydrated. Yikes. I'm gonna work on doing better tonight. =(
Hope everyone is doing well!!
Congratulations Rebecca!!!! I feel pretty lonely in this thing too. My husband, as I've posted before, hasn't been supportive at all. I basically came home from the hospital and I was back to work at my "mommy chores". I try to go to support group but it's only once a month. I'll have to drag my poor daughter there next week. With driving, a 1-2 hour meeting becomes 4-5 hours out. Unless someone has been in our shoes, they just don't know how to relate to us. Britt and I went to lunch with my mom, her younger sister and my grandmother. My grandmother only knows that I had surgery. She doesn't know what kind. Why? Because her other children and their children have always treated me like **** so why tell them. lol So, we went to this hot dog place I love. Everyone got their food and I ordered a hot dog with a slice of cheese on top. I ate about 1/3 of it and put down my fork. My grandmother kept pushing me to eat when my mom told her I'd had surgery and food just doesn't taste good. My aunt knows only because her stepdaughter had this done about 3 years ago. But, I felt so horrible being there. I just wanted to come home to my comfort food.....FF/SF banana cream pudding. LOL
But, check Yahoogroups and see if there's a support group near you. I found one about 30 minutes from me and they meet every other week. It's a small, but very informative group. But, you're right, sometimes it's very hard when the rest of the world just doesn't get why we do this. 
* Cyndi *
* Cyndi * 
>>My grandmother only knows that I had surgery. She doesn't know what kind. Why? Because her other children and their children have always treated me like **** so why tell them. lol
Cyndi, I can relate to you there! I did not tell my father's side of the family. Some kinda knew as my mom told my brother not knowing I had not planned on telling them. They have been so cruel and made me feel like the black sheep for years. (My Stepmother the biggest instigator). I wanted not to tell anyone....just show up one day (it has been a year and a half since I went home). Well a few days before surgery I decided to tell my grandmother.....not realizing she would not be able to keep it to herself. From the day I had surgery she was calling asking if she could tell anyone. Finally I consented because she called me in tears....how happy she was for me and how she did not want the family to be mad when they found out I witheld it. I still felt that was my decision. But it was tearing her up so much it was my mom who said just let her tell them. Well I got a somewhat sarcastic....or at least that was the tone of the email from my father....felt like a form letter. So maybe I did not make the right decision.....but you have to do what is best for YOU!!!!!!
That is why I did not want to tell them.....because of the way I have been treated all these years....why would I allow them to share in my joy of my "new life".
Banana cream pudding hunh? Have not tried that....fave right now is Caramel. 
Donna
Donna 
ya know cyndi....everytime you write about your unsupporting husband it just makes me want to slap him silly!!!! he's probably one of the reasons you got overweight to begin with! unfortunately as you lose weight he's probably gonna be more of an ass because he's worried that you'll leave him for someone else! (which i wouldn't blame you) from what you say i wouldn't be surprised if he tries to sabatoge your good work! just stay strong and rewire yourself to think positive and ignore his insecurities...
lizzie 
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