Starting to go a little crazy...

I'm so close to surgery day- the waiting and over thinking things is starting to get to me! I have these debates with myself... One minute I wonder whether I'm doing the right thing or not. The next minute I'm telling myself how much better I will feel and that I have done all the right things to prepare. I guess I just feel like even though I have done all this prep work- I don't think I will really know what it will be like and that is still a little scary. Anyway- had to vent a little. Sorry to be nutty! Kathy

You're not nutty........it's just a crazy time for you right now. You will do fine, and will have worried for nothing. Be well!! ~~Betsy P.S. And don't be sorry, we have all gone through it!!!

Hi Kathy, I wonder if I had not been so busy this week if I'd be writing the same post as you did! Anyway, you are allowed to go a little nuts. But take some heart in the fact that you would not have been approved if the surgery was riskier than just going on at your current weight and whatever health complications it has already caused you. And by a pretty good margin, too. Underwriters don't split hairs that fine. I will be thinking of you and our other surgery siblings on Tuesday. -- T.Rob

Hi T.Rob, You are in my Prayers....I am so excited for you. Tuesday will be here and gone before you know it. What hospital are you going to be in? I will call you this weekend to check up on you. Hugs, Esther

Hi, Kathy! My WLS is on Tuesday, too! I've had brief thoughts of cancelling because I have lost 20lbs on the liquid diet. I wonder... if I can do this, why can't I stick to a real diet and just loose the weight?? Then I remember all the diets I've been on, including a liquid protein diet in the late 70s when I only drank water and had 2T daily of some concoction for a month, lost 30 lbs and gained it back within a week!!! Was probably all water weight! I come back to the harsh reality that I NEED THIS SURGERY to be successful in getting healthy. I just cant wait to start living my life more actively. I'm having a few nerves, too about the details of the surgery and how I'll feel after, but...I know I'll get through, just like you will!!! Have a great weekend and RELAX!!! Jean

Hey Jean! I meant to reply to you before and just realized I forgot. Must be the liquid diet messing with my mind. I don't know about you, but the liquid diet is getting tougher each day. I wasn't the typical "its' hard the first couple days then gets easier". I'm just the opposite - it was easier the first few days and now I'm so bored and sick of the limited variety just the thought of the choices almost makes me ill! I've only lost 6 in 6 days. I guess it's not bad considering how often do you lose a pound a day on any diet? I'm guessing by the end of this I'll have lost 10 pounds. I'm keeping my eye on the prize. I wish Wednesday was here already! Congrats and good luck to you and everyone! Michelle

Hi Kathy, I did the same thing before surgery....believe me! I tortured myself with fear and after the surgery I thought, why did I do that...this was easy. I had very little pain and felt wonderful. I am 2 weeks Post-op and feeling wonderful. Everyday I feel stronger and stronger and would definately do it again. You are doing the right thing and will be so happy that you did it. My prayers are with you and I look forward to your first post after surgery when you tell everyone, WOW, IT WAS WORTH IT! Hugs, Esther