Peace and Serenity at Last!

Hi everyone - Surgery is May 23, and I feel like I have ran the gambit of emotions from fear to finally peace within. It's been a little over 10 months since this whole process began. I have had time to spend here on OH reading everything I could get my hands on. I've watched people over this course of almost a year have surgery and lose tons of weight. I've talked seriously with doctors, nurses, women and men about people they know who have had the surgery done with great success. Finally, I have read books, and practiced this new way of eating with some setbacks and some proud moments. With a great deal of prayer and all of the above "researching", I believe I have finally gotten to the point of knowing that this is absolutely without any doubt the thing that I want to do for myself. I've not pushed myself to make a commitment to having this surgery, even though I had a date. I wanted to know that I was at peace with my decision, and that I felt comfortable with all of the reasons that I wanted to have this surgery done. I wanted to BELIEVE IN myself. I can safely say that I have arrived. I CAN be successful in losing the weight with the aid of this surgery. I know it won't always be easy, but I know that I am doing the right thing. This feels good!

Gayla, I'm so happy you're "ready". I think the closer the date gets we either become peaceful or we freak. ;) You're going to do just great during your journey. You've got a bunch of us out here cheering you on! And, I think it's great to actually *know* people who've gone through this. I have a few real life friends who've done amazing since WLS. And, then, I have my OH family and just look at how great everyone's doing!!!! Believe in yourself and you're going to do great!!!! I'll keep you and the rest of the May 23rd gang in my prayers. * Cyndi *

Thank you Cyndi - I don't know what I would do without this OH group! It's all part of getting ready for the journey, and succeeding, I believe! I need the prayer, so thanks so much! Gesch

I'm with you, dear lady!! All of my uncertainty, fear and anxiety were BEFORE I made the decision to do this...................... I put all that burden in the hands of God when I made that decision to go forward. Once that was done, I was filled with peace, and knew that all would be okay, because I was in His hands.................. I never once considered changing my mind, never again stressed or worried. Didn't even get excited until I was on the airplane headed to MX .................... As I told my sister, "I know that whatever God decides to do with me, I do not fear.................because either way "I'm gonna Fly!" http://www.singingfool.com/default.asp?%frame=/musicvideo.asp%3FpublishedId%3D00025640 Keeping you in thoughts and prayers as you begin this marvelous journey!! Karen

Isn't that a great feeling? I've been feeling the same way. I am so excited to actually be doing this. I have an aunt who keeps saying, you'll be fine, you're going to a good hospital, etc. I have no doubts about what I'm doing so I think she's trying to convince herself. lol I'll be joining you on the losers bench next Wednesday. My surgery is scheduled for 7:30. Take care, Cindy

Cindy, since I posted that info above, I have come to realize that I am actually like a yo-yo! Even thought I am at peace with the surgery, and know that it is the right thing to do - I have so much anxiety that I can hardly live with myself! I have butterflies in my stomach. Kim invited me to a support group, and tonight I am going. I think I need the support of other people right now....others that have gone through this process! So, off I go....to be supported, and someday, soon, I hope, I will be the one giving support. For now, I'll take all the support I can get! Can't wait for this yo-yo effect to stop! Gayla