Hoping nervousness = excitement SOON

Hi all, Just having a case of the pre-surgery jitters...I'm very nervous and scared. Trying to do the mind over matter thing, deep breathing, relaxation, etc. I know it's vital to have a good mindframe when going into surgery and I'm doing my best to make that happen, but I am honestly VERY scared. I have been so emotional. I don't cry easily but just today I cried on the way to work, at work, on the way home, and now typing this dang post. I know this is best for me, I am sure I will do ok, but it's terrifying. I'm just feeling really overwhelmed right now. I thought working right up to the date of surgery would help me keep my mind off of this a little but this is consuming me. I don't think of anything else. I don't sleep at night, I'm exhausted, I want to sleep but my brain won't stop I'm getting somewhat short-tempered and quiet. My husband has been asking me non-stop if I am ok. I'm frustrated at myself because I am supposed to be on my high-protein, low-fat, low-sugar diet and I find myself craving BAD foods, even had a taste of a few. Praying God will help me through this and be with me during surgery. I can handle complications, I just don't want to die. Anyway, just wondering how everyone else is coping with their jitters or excitement. If you aren't nervous and just excited, email some of that over to me please!?! You will be my hero! Have a great day! Jamie

Jamie, Keep breathing. My surgery is tomorrow and although I am nervous I really feel at peace. I have made the best decision given all the information I have and really know that this is the only way to live the way I want. I have not had to be on any diet until today so I have been saying goodbye to all my favorite foods by eating them. I know that in 24 hours I will almost be completed with my surgery and will be begin my new life. If you need anything just let me know. Have an uneventful surgery and a speedy recovery. Lauri

Jamie, I can tell that you are a very sweet person. I've chatted with you on several occasions and know that you are a genuine person and you have many people in here with many thoughts and prayers. Try to relax and keep focused on the finish line and not the starting gate. Look ahead one year from now and you will be celebrating your first surgiversary. We will all be back here next year to throw everyone a big party..okay it will have to be a cyber party. I have times where I get nervous, but I try not to think about it. I was on my way to my last pre-op support group meeting. They hold it at the hospital. As I was driving in it occured to me that the next time I head to that hosptial I'll be heading in for the "big day". I got nervous, but it passed and I said to myself, whatever will be, will be. Just remember that the risks are far less than if we didn't take this action. You will be fine. Just relax and enjoy the start to your new life...and getting your life back. We care about you Jamie!!! John

HOn you will be fine, I will be having mine on the 15th and am on the liquid diet myself, I will be glad when its all over and we both will have a new life God Bless Sandy C

Jamie-- I'm just as nervous as you are...and just as emotional! Yesterday was my 25th birthday...so my parents wanted to take me out. I felt really withdrawn, kind of quiet, and a little irritable. I think its just nerves. That's how I act when I'm nervous. I don't really like to talk about it.............but that's just me. I know I've made the right decision for me...but it's still very emotionally draining. I've felt completely exhausted the last couple days, no matter how much sleep I get. Hopefully once surgery day gets here--my mind will be at ease. I'm so glad to have found my OH friends...and my Angel. She's awesome! The two of us went out to dinner and hung out for about 4 hours the other night---I'm so glad to have found her. Anyway, hang in there girl...we're all here cheering you on! Courtney

hey----I am sooo glad to know that I am not the only one that feels this way..... I will pray for you... I have said the exact same thing that you did- I can handle the complications even the pain--- I just dont wanna die! I cried when I got my approval letter. All day today my chest has been hurting. I just look at my children and wonder am I making the right decision. I am not ready to leave them---they need me and I need them! I just asking God to let me live to be an old lady and see my children have children and I am just gonna have to trust that he will allow me to do that... anyways if you wanna talk just let me know.