I am so upset!!!!

Hello everyone, my surgery date is May 9th, right around the corner. I have been on the liquid diet for two weeks. Today my father went back into the hospital, he has been battling acute myloid leukemia, and we recieved news that it may never go into remission. So as you can imagine the emotions of the day. Well i am being honest...i ate food. not gorging or sweets, just food. Well my punishment was that it made me sick and I threw it up. I feel so guilty and upset. I wonder am I really going to be able to do this.. I want it very bad...I have went thru alot to get to this point. Has anyone ever ding there two week liquid diet? thanks..Tina

First of all, I'm sorry about your Dad Tina. I will be saying some extra prayers for him. As for the liquid diet and "cheating", I don't know for sure. The only thing I have heard is it may cause your surgeon to have to do your surgery open rather than lap. Maybe throwing it up stopped any affects it could have had anyway. You are 4 days before surgery so hopefully if you just brush yourself off and stick to the LD by the book from this point forward, you might be okay. You'd been following it to the letter before you slip up today, right? Maybe others on her have experience with this. I bet if you post on the main boards, there is bound to be someone with experience with that. Hang in here! Michelle

I'm sorry about your dad Tina. My surgery is the 14th. I don't have the LD but I have alot other restrictions. I too am going through alot today. I think that the bottom line is that we need to be able to be strong and remember how much better we will be once we cross over. Believe it or not reading your message is help to me. I thought I was going crazy with the self sabotage today. Hell I cooked a full course meal and there's no one here to eat it. Everyone is out with the big boxing fight. I think the most important thing I can say in fact to the both of us, is we need to focus and go back to what we're supposed to be doing.

Tina, I am very sorry about your Dad. I will keep him in my prayers. As for me, I'm having surgery on Monday the 7th. My surgeon's only requirement is clear liquids tomorrow until Midnight. I did not have to do two weeks of liquids. Stick to the fluids the next few days and you should be fine. Just make sure you are having bowel movements. I hope that helps. You are in my thoughts and prayers!! Hugs, Heather

Hi Tina, I am really sorry about your dad. You are almost there, keep up with the LD. It is natural to question if you can commit, but you have come some far and from reading your post you seem very strong. Hang In there! I have done liquid diets before and they are not easy but you are almost at the finish line. Lots of Love Jen

Tina, First off, I'm sorry to hear about your dad and will think of him in my prayers. Secondly, I am on a 2 week high protein, low-fat, low-sugar diet...so not necessarily liquid but I can include raw fruits and veges, low fat cheese, broth, protein supplements, and a small piece of chicken breast. Even with me being able to eat food...I've dinged. Just get back on the saddle and don't look back on it...it happened, just don't do it again. I've had to just stick to liquids because I find if I eat food-even healthy, I crave the non healthy food. I used to eat healthy food and make my meal unhealthy with adding a few unhealthy choices...so I've stocked up on protein supplements and fresh fruit and have been making smoothies. I hope this helps, you're not alone, and this is a great place for support...so keep on drinking and best of luck to you!!! Jamie

Hi Tina, Sorry to hear about your dad but God works miracles. Right now you need to think of TINA and not let your emotions run away with you. NO, I did not stay on my liquid protein perfectly. I ate dinner (good dinner) periodically so you have not blown anything. The important thing is when you get closer to the WLS date, stay on the liquids and do just as your doctor instructs. Tomorrow is my surgery and I am scared to death but know it is the thing that will save my life. I am here for you and I will be praying for you. Hugs, Esther

Tina, my thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. I can't even imagine what you must be going thru. Please remember that we are all human and make mistakes, and making one mistake doesn't make you a failure. You have done a lot to get to this point and even after surgery you won't be perfect, but you will make it!!! I didn't have to go on a 2-week liquid diet, but just think, you will be 2-weeks ahead of the rest of us on your weight loss. I wish you all the best, and let us know how you are doing after surgery Take care........... 3 days and counting for me!!! Alli

Hello everyone, I just wanted to say how much appreciate your support, kind words and prayers. I have done great since sat on my pre liquids. Three days and I will be on the loosing side for good. I am so ready!!! My father is holding his own right now. I am thankful for every day I have to spend with him. I appreciate the big support team I have right here I this site. Best wishes to all...Tina thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Tina, Gotcha covered in blessings and prayers, sweetheart!! So sorry to hear about your daddy!! I understand the stress that you are under, but you remember that the best thing you can do for your daddy, is LIVE!! Make your life better..................make it beautiful, because he can´t change his, but you still have that option. You remember that on OH, you are loved and somebody is always here for you!! WE are all in this together no matter how long it takes us................... we can ALL be winners, and together, we WILL be WINNERS!! Now...................take a deep breath, know that God does work miracles, even when we humans lack hope, and make YOUR life beautiful!! Love ya!! Karen