My road block arrived.

As you may know today was my surgery. I had done alot of praying about my decision to pursue WLS. I prayed and prayed to the Lord that if it wasn't meant for me to have this done set up a roadblock and I would just let it go. Well the roadblock came and I think I am going to have to just give up. I went in and was ready for my new life. They put me under and they ran into complications. I had a hernia which they repaired but my liver was to large to work with. They didn't put me on a special diet ahead of time like most of you here. I thought that was strange but I didn't question it to much. He took care of some adhesions I had from my previous gall bladder surgery years ago. When they woke me in recovery they mentioned a hernia to me and said I would be going home shortly. I thought oh no they messed up so I told them no I had the gastric bypass. The nurse said no they didn't do it and the dr would come in and talk to me. My thoughts were: OH my gosh I have cancer. They took me to a room and I insisted the send for my husband and my mother because I just knew they were upset with the news and I needed them there when I hear it. It took the dr forever to get there so my husband broke the news to me. Thank the Lord it wasn't cancer. My liver was too large. He spent time with my family explaining what had happened and explained to them why he thought I would be a better candidate for the Lap-band. Well when the dr talked to me he didn't go in quite as much detail with me as he did my family but said take the time to heal and see him in about a week and we will go over some options for me and I could pursue this again in about six-weeks. I'm not sure I can go through all of this again. I was so psyched and ready for my new life that now I'm not so sure I can go through all this anxiety again. So I'm sorry if I don't respond to your well wishes right away because I have so many mixed emotions to deal with. But I truly am thankful for you, my friends here. Still know that I am praying for everyone here in OH. Best of luck to you. God Bless you all, Terri

Terri, I'm so sorry about not having the procedure. Things do happen for a reason, but take the time to reconsider and pray about whether to keep persuing this option. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I'm sure God will lead you to the right path for you. God bless and good luck, ~~Elena

Terri, I know I chatted with you last night but I wanted to give you a hug this morning and let you know I'm thinking about you. I'm praying for you and I really know that god has a plan for you. It will all work out for the best. Let me know if you need anything! Rebecca

Thank you Rebecca for the kind words. I'm not sure how I feel right now, it's starting to hit me all the emotions at once. I'm not having a good day but your kind words I'm sure will get me through it. Thanks, Terri

Terri, I just don't know what to say. You are in my thoughts and prayers!!! God Bless ~~Betsy

Hi Terri I'm relatively new to posting but saw your email and wanted to encourage you to listen to your body and your heart will follow. To some extent I know the disappointment of not having the surgery when expected but under very different cir****tances. I had gone through the entire pre-op preparation with tests etc and when it came down to the wire, found out I had not met my insurance company's requirements. That was three years ago. I just had lap-band surgery on 5/4 and know it was the right decision at the right time for me. My surgeon required me to lose 10% of my body weight with the last four weeks geared to very low carbohydrate intake (30 gm/day!) as apparently the reduction of carbs shrinks the liver allowing easier access to the stomach. My thoughts are with you and of course I hope you find the inner strength to get back on track of positive thinking and know that if you really want any type of bariatric surgery, it's there for you - when you're ready. Hugs Nona