Finally Hit Me!!

I want to start of by expressing, I am not trying to offend anyone. I have been reading posts about people crying and being upset by upcoming surgeries for various reasons. I thought to myself, it's odd I don't feel this way. I just have been so excited and anxious for the day to come. I know everyone reacts to things differently. Well............it finally fit me. I have been very weepy this morning. I received an email from OH and it said something to the effect of , only 5 more days to go!! Yup, you guessed it, reality came down crashing hard around me. I do not have the strong support of my family I would like. Matter of fact, my hubby may not even take me to the hospital, it will probably be my sister. I kept telling myself it didn't matter, but I guess it mattered more than I thought. Well, I feel better now getting that out, Thanks!!!!!!!!! Good Luck to all Mayers!!! God Bless, ~~Betsy

Awwww Betsy. Hang in there. I'm sure hubby will come around. It's hard for them because, as you know, WE are the strong ones. WE are the caregivers. It's hard for them to have to switch places. You're going to be just fine! I don't have a really strong support system. All I hear from my hubby is "what will i do if something happens to you?" I finally got sick of hearing it and said "don't worry. there's no way in HELL I'd leave my baby girl solely in your care." That shut him up. LOL Take with you to the hospital your strongest supporter. If my best friend hadn't just had back surgery I would have wanted her there. Sure it matters to you. Your husband is just scared and he doesn't know how to show it. I'll be saying prayers for you! You're gonna do GREAT!!!!!!! If you need to chat or vent, I'm usually on Yahoo Instant Messenger. * Cyndi *

Betsy you are going to do GREAT! Just think of how nice it will be to be on the losers bench! You will always have the support of all of us here on the boards! Keep your head up- everything will be great- your journey is just beginning! Kathy

I was the same Betsy, I was never nervous, except for the morning of, just nervous and for some reason I too was a weepy mess the day before! :haha You will be in my prayers, and I'm sure your hubby will come around once he sees how good this surgery will be for you!

Betsy, I didn't have the support of my husband either and he was going to have my son take me to the hospital and I said that was fine until yesterday morning when I broke down and said, "I NEED YOU THERE WITH ME" because I am scared. He felt so guilty that he took off work and he is going with me to the hospital. I can't concentrate on anything Betsy and I work at a school where the data I put out has to be perfect and I can't think about work or anything. All I do is read my Surgical manuel that the doctor gave me and cry. The only good thing is that I have lost my appitite and can't eat. WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER! We can do this!!!!!! We will be fine and when it is over I want to hear how you are doing. My cell phone number is (909) 615-0706 and my home number is (909) 947-3010 and you can call me anytime. If you get a message machine, I will call you back. Pretty soon we will be jumping for joy! Hugs to you my friend, Esther

My emotions have been going up and down too. My surgery isn't until the end of the month, but I keep going from excited to freaking out, wondering if I'm doing the right thing. It's a HUGE step, so it's natural for us to be feeling rather strongly! My husband is pretty funny right now. He keeps getting excited, but then looks at me as if about to cry and says, "I won't know you anymore...you won't be the same girl I married." I keep telling him that I'll still be the same girl, just a whole lot littler. YAY! Good luck my friend and like everyone has said, keep your chin up! Only good lay ahead of us now and we're all here to support each other! Lots of love, Kerri

I just found out that someone that I considered to be one of my truest and closest supporters went behind my back and said I live in bizarro world, that I have too many problems and issues, that I'm not a good candidate for this surgery and that by sending out a group email to selected people regarding the surgery I am being self-serving and tacky. I know people say that you find out who your true friends are in times of need, but it still hurt like hell. (and pissed me off too!)

You friend is jealous Erika because she knows you are going to be drop dead gorgeous. Don't let her hurt you but at least you know now who your true friends are. You will find true friends on this website, believe me. They are the most wonderful people I have ever known. You will do great and I am happy for you. Hugs, Esther