under a month and getting nervous

hi everyone, i'am a single 35 yr old mother of 2 teenage sons....my only support other than the people on this site. I love it here because everyone is so supportive of each other. I dont want my sons to see me nervous so i figured i would post on here and hope it helps. My date is May 10th and my doctor requires a scope so that and my pre-testing are scheduled for the 26th of this month. My oldest which is 16 will be with me the whole time...he's such a caring child, but he still is having a few doubts about his mom having this surgery, god bless him, he knows just as much as i do about the surgery. I would just like to know what some of you are experiencing. God bless you all and i will keep you all in my prayers. Hugs to all ricki

Hi Ricki My surgery date is May 10th as well. Yes, I am starting to get nervous as well. It seems so huge, what with having my insides rearranged and having to eat healthy forever! I actually am begining to mourn the loss of KFC! I also have seen pictures of the excess skin on some of the plastic surgery listserves and that scares me a lot. If I'm gonna be normal size (which in my book is skinny) I wanna be half naked too. Ok not actually half naked but I would like to take advantage of some of the things that I would never wear now like spagetti straps, short skirts, shots... I also like my girls full - like they are now. I don't want to loose them. But having said that I am excited too. Good luck with your pre-op testing. I have to do the liquid diet for 2 weeks. My appointment with my surgeon is next Tuesday so I will see what I have to do when. Lets stay in touch! Amari

hey Amari, what a beautiful name. i'm glad to meet someone with the same date, i would really like to keep in touch with you. Where are you from? I cant wait for the cute clothes either, i too am worried about the extra skin but hey i'll trade the weight for it...as for my girls i hope i dont loose them i dont have much as it is...lol. take care Ricki

Hi Ricki, I too am very nervous about my upcoming surgery. I am scheduled for May 16th. I actually was off of work yesterday and took it upon myself to get more educated by reading some WLS books I ordered off of Amazon.com. I worked myself into an all and out anxiety attack complete with asthma, crying episodes, and the feeling of panic. I was basically a basketcase. I am not a nervous person and normally very in control...this actually led me to posting a post on here last night around 8 pm. In a very short time I received a lot of advice stating that the feeling is completely normal...and expected. Most all of the people that replied said the feelings I was experiencing start about 1 month before surgery...so it's normal. I did contact my surgeon for reassurance today and he said that it's completely normal to feel nervous...he expects it, but he's not nervous...until he is I have nothing to worry about. I am going to get on a little med though because I will drive my husband insane if the crying episodes continue. I have a husband and 1 year old daughter and was feeling selfish for wanting WLS and taking the risk it requires. I have decided this is the best option for me to have the opportunity to live a longer and more healthy life. I'm only 27 and decided that this is a life saving procedure, not an optional surgery. You too will have the opportunity to do everything you want to do when you are on the losing side. I can't wait to get there...first thing I am going to do when I get close to goal is ride a roller coaster until I puke...I would never attempt to get on one now...I couldn't deal with the embarrassment of not fitting. I am looking forward to laying in my daughters bed and reading to her without fear of breaking it, and sit on a plastic patio chair without having one of the legs break or crack, have to plan which restaurant to go to in order to make sure I fit behind the booth...the pro list goes on and on...life will be truly amazing...and the nervousness we suffer through will be a long forgotten memory when you are running around naked (or half naked) as you put it. Take care, Jamie

ok...correction, I guess the previous poster wants to run around naked.....but who doesn't when they are going to be hot to trot?!?!?