thanks so much Deanna I have been so incredibly happy. I kep telling my mom. I can't believe that's me. The person in that picture is so pretty. lol

My wedding is scheduled for May 10, 2008. With only 3 months to plan, things have been crazy!!!! My engagement photos are available online. Go to www.nicholson-photography.com Click on ONLINE PROOFING at the botttom. Then on Amanda and Rusty. It will ask for an email address (this just gives you access, but if you're not comfortable using yours..mine is [email protected]). I think she did a little too much touch up on my individual but I am very pleased with the pics. I can hardly believe its me!

Hi Gals! Okay, so how was everyone's weekend? Mine was a strange mixed blessing sort of couple of days. I went on a Youth Ministry Retreat Friday night through Sat and had a wonderful time that gave me a renewed sense of purpose. I came home Sat to 1 unhappy child and husband( thankfully my almost 3 year old Emily was a oblivious to the boys grouchy attitudes) and realized through tears and arguments that my son feels angry a lot recently at not getting his fathers time or attention. So angry in fact he confessed to stealing and lying the past several months whenever he was mad at us.!! WOW!How did things become such a mess when Im gone for 24 flippin hours??? So I listened alot and gave lots of hugs and went to church yesterday and cried and asked for guidance....and here's the kicker.....I reached for tortilla chips to help me cope. UGH! I think I am resolved and evolved and sometimes I make the worst choices. I know I could have done worse - in fact, I made a point not to reach for my wine glass and have a drink with the chips. I dont need to add to my problems. So I am resolved, its a new day, a beautiful day and I feel positive that my family and my eating habits can improve and be happy and productive. To that end I will take some of Andi's advice and marinate and portion control snacks and meals for the day. I LOVE that idea. Its a crazy life and I am grateful to all of you for STILL being here and helping me and being an inspiration for me to not give up on myself! Still a work in progress, Kathryn wt: 211 next weeks goal 209

breakfast: roasted garbanzo beans (whole can or 3.5 points) Lunch: fast food burger with onions and pickles no bread (4 points) dinner: toasted light english muffin, pickles and a veggie burger with ketchup and (2) servings of potato chips, not in one sitting but over the course of the evening and 2 cookies and some salad and gardienera carrots snacks were OUT of control: cookie dough, a few handfuls of fries with lunch time to get myself back on the band wagon and rock this tool! ANDI

Hi Kathryn welcome back to "on track" it's the place you were before you found the carbs again. We're waiting for you and we'll walk this path with you if and when you need us to. I'm starting back on the path to righteousness tomorrow as i've got a huge shin dig tonight and I'm not sure i want to eat healthy. What will you do tomorrow to start you on the road to recovery? Here is what i'm going to do: today i'm going to get my fluids in, i've been quite remiss about that and it's starting to show, i'm dehydrating and I feel my thought process starting to go downhill so today that's what i've got on my agenda. Tomorrow: 1. I'm going to make up snack baggies with all my supplements for the week and I'm going to label them so that I know i've taken that days pills 2. I'm going to get in all of my water/fluids so that my skin will rehydrate and I'll stop looking like a sunk in alien 3. I'm going to bring my breakfast/lunch to work with me and two snacks to boot, when the food isn't in the bag it's either time to go home or time to drink more fluids 4. I started marinating tomorrow nights dinner (chicken with fat free italian dressing) i'm going to roast some broccoli (favorite of mine) and the kids can have corn/rice/pasta it doesn't matter because i'm not having it. This mornings weight: 143.5 goal for next Saturday 142.5 (i'll take less but we'll see what the week brings) tell me what you'll do to make you a success? Andi