Jean you rock and you know you do so don't let anyone tell you that you don't! Can you put your hand up and say this is not up for discussion or difuse it in some other way? I feel that when someone apologizes for saying something hurtful i'm then forced to wonder if they are sorry they said it, sorry that my feelings are hurt by something they find truthful or are just paying me lip service so that i shut up....you can see i have some issues about this right? Hugs, ANDI

No I never say anything to him...(and I could) I told him it hurts and he says sorry, but he does not what me to get any smaller....He says he did not like me fat. (I was fat when I met him) but he likes woman in the middle, and would like to see me back to when I was 125 or 130lbs He really can not understand why I am so afraid of eating too many things that are bad for me... I explained how hard it was to train myself into eating right and if I re gained it would be very hard to go back....I eat 6 or so small meals a day, but I would rather eat right with protein first, I do eat chips and some bread/pasta/potatoes now... but I would rather stick to healthy eating most of the time... I told him my body will settle out where it wants to be and that its still trying to figure it out...

Jeannie Beany do you make nasty comments to your husband about his appearance? Somehow just getting to know you on here I don't think you do...could i be wrong, of course i can. I want you to look him in the eye and say in a calm voice, I don't appreciate it when you call me names let's get to the heart of what's bothering you. See what he says or does and get back to me. You can't let what other people think rule your world, it's what Jean thinks and that's got to be in the forefront of your mind. Hugs my friend, ANDI

Thanks Maria It sounds like you have had a very hard time of it, I'm glad you are doing better... I think I need to just let what others say roll off my back easier, but you know how it is (when you are so happy and then someone makes a comment to you that's nasty ,and it just makes you want to cry)... and boy do I know about those walls.... it was a safe place being fat... people made fun of you..(me))... but now like Saturday, I got cornered by two men in the parking lot of the grocery store..... (because I had a tank top from Disney) (they wanted to tell me how much they liked it)... (I told them to F---k Off). like you, the getting strong will take time....and ,I am moving and leaving everyone I know... very scary!

I went out and bought a new can of protein powder so no excuses that I don't have any. I also plan to keep up my exercise - to add to the 'program', so bought a bike last week and have been out riding it!! Pre wls I was too embarrassed to be seen on a bike with my butt hanging over the tiny weeny little saddle!!! I cycled two miles last night uphill and on the flat one way, downhill and flat on the way back instead of going to the gym. I have also been watching the tv shows all about people having wls and/or losing weight, as it reminds me where I've come from and what I've been through. I find it helps me keep the resolve to keep going and NOT go back to where I've come from. We've been through too much to let it all go to waste (or waist!!). Hugs to everyone - we can do this...