lucky for me i get to start day one all over again because it was so much fun the first few times. ANDI

how did it go yesterday? I caved like a house of cards i tell ya! Today is day one all over again. Andi

It's like ground hogs day i get to try day one all over again. I'm pms'ing pretty badly and I'm stressed at work and I think intsead of going for a walk i'm taking it out on myself and that's not right. I get up at the butt crack of dawn and I'm too tired to give a crap by the end of the day and it shows. ANDI

My hubby doesn't have much of a libido either.....man we seem to be once again so alike. I used to blame myself..i was too heavy but maybe it's just a hormonal thing because he's simply not htat interested and really never was. Once the "i do's" happened suddenly he didn't anymore. Probably alot of fodder for therapy but i'm not going back. ANDI

I am so off track that I am not even going to worry about what I am eating right now. I have given myself permission to blow it until things settle down here. I gave my notice on the house and then the kids, so I have until this weekend to find a place for me and the dogs and then sort. pack, move, put things into storage and sell the rest. One kid is moving by Friday the other is going to come up with me to Yukon for a goodbye holiday (I promised him a trip to my old stomping grounds and I have to make good so that I can sleep at night). So until the end of the month I am going full tilt and no****ching anything that I eat at all.