Andi, I just hang out and read....thanks for making me laugh so hard the last few years My 2 years is May 25...I cant wait...I have lost 1/2 my body weight..lost 190...weigh 190...lol...hope to hit the 180's by then...please keep us all laughing... Maria

i wish i could reach up North and give you the hugs you really really need. How's about you just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and that G*D won't give you more then you can handle or lead you too far off the path he wants you on. I want you to enjoy the road trip food though, don't scarf it down in shame really savor it and make sure it's good quality so that you feel it's positive. I'll be here when you get back (still battling the same freakin 4-6lbs) and i'll be more then willing to go on the pouch test whatever thing is new and hot when you get back with you. We are in this for life and we're in it together, you are NOT alone Holly no way no how. ANDI

well there is a lot of information out there. pro and con. and so many choices and it is so complicated. I do not know if it sounds kookie, but I wonder about the benefits of YOGA.. we loved the show Dharma and Greg, but to seriously consider YOGA and Alternative medicine is a great leap for us (typical republicans) we are so not democrats giggle

I have been out of touch, mostly because I am on a road trip to Whitehorse Yukon with one of my kids. I quit fostering but wanted to honour a promise that I made to this one boy and take him to Whitehorse (where I used to live) It was a 30 hour drive, we left Sunday afternoon and we rolled in Tuesday morning in the wee hours. We stopped at a natural spring hotsprings and swam for a couple of hours and it was so nice! I have no idea what faces me when I get home, just that I am doing what I can to stay okay with life. My little boy is quietly freaking out as he knows that he is moving to another family when we get back and he is soooo excited about this trip. It is kind of bittersweet. He is showing me how good he can behave, I think he figures that I can change my mind about quitting fostering. That is pretty sad. So I have been junking out big time, road trips are notorious for bad food, and this is no exception. I have given myself permission to junk out. It is either that or just beat myself up more, and that isn't an option right now. So, how am I doing? About as good as can be expected I guess. It probably won't be typical here for some time though, and I am okay with that.

I went to the dr and then to another and then to another and then to another and all are concurring that it would appear that a hysterectomy is in order. I am not sure about this and will have to prayfully consider my options.