My day started off well... Cheese, cottage, lowfat (1-2% fat) 150 2 6 15 Turkey or chicken breast, prepackaged or deli, luncheon meat 31 0 0 6 Pork bacon, NS as to fresh, smoked or cured, cooked 29 2 0 2 Tomatoes, raw 6 0 1 0 Bread, wheat or cracked wheat, toasted 49 1 9 2 Pork bacon, NS as to fresh, smoked or cured, cooked 69 6 0 4 Chicken, breast, with or without bone, stewed, skin not eaten 202 4 0 39 Milk, condensed, sweetened, undiluted 245 7 42 6 Chocolate, milk, plain 210 13 24 3 Totals 991c 35f 82c 76p

I am disappointed in myself...I have reverted back to my old habits just because I didn't like what the scales told me. How stupid is that - have I not learnt anything on this journey - well yes, actually, loads, but chose not to put my knowledge into my brain this weekend, grrrr. I have gone on a food fest (well as much as a post wlser can). I am stuffing food in my mouth, to spite myself. My (irrational) thoughts are if I gain weight by eating right, then I might as well eat what I like, no matter what I do it won't make any difference. My logic knows how crazy and ridiculous these actions are, but I still keep doing it. Well, the reason I'm posting is this, 1. so that if anyone else is doing this they will know they are not the only ones, and that we CAN control what we put in our mouths and our reactions to things do not need to include putting things into our mouths to consume 2. so that I can draw a line under this behaviour and start again. I WILL not eat anything else tonight, and WILL make wise choices tomorrow and WILL ensure that I eat when I am hungry, until I am no longer hungry. I WILL choose food that 'feeds' my body's needs not my emotions needs. Thanks for listening, and sorry I've been hogging the posts lately.

Isn't it wonderful...I now weigh less than I lost also...That is amazing to say! I've lost more weight than I currently weigh! I wish the other part were true. I actually feel as if I look older (fat has a "weigh" of filling out the wrinkles).

B-- protein shake S-- piece of crustless quiche L-- 1/2 ham and cheese sandwich on whole wheat, 1/2 serving Sun Chips, 1 nectarine S-- a small handful of chocolate chips (ugh, what was I thinking? They didn't even taste that great!) D-- I'm going to eat a piece of whole wheat toast with peanut butter a couple hours before going to the gym to run ... I can't eat a full dinner before I run. After the gym, I don't know what I'll eat! It's a weird schedule for me! By the time I get home, it will be late but I know I have to eat something ... the key is to make wise choices instead of wolfing down the first thing I see! Deanna

No major plans for the weekend....this is the first weekend since May I dont have anything to do. Believe me I am going to take full advantage of it and watch movies or read or just catch up on stuff around the house. Next week I dive right back into all my duties. Have a great weekend everyone. Best of luck on the race Deanna........you can do it!! Kel