I am RIGHT there with you...  I had people tell me that I was TOO thin even though I was 10+ of my ideal weight.  I have nibbled my way up the scales and while I do not want to use the "D" word, I do need to get back to basics.  I have RARELY stretched my pouch since this all began.  I am still STUFFED with a single taco or a single slice of cheese. but I am suspicious that it is dehydration and stress induced cordisol that causes weight gain.

what I do not think that I need is a physical support group, or even a 'group hug' although I got a couple of those yesterday and it did feel pretty good.  I tend to act like a shut in lately with all my stress.  what I am doing is one meal at a time, getting back to basics.

Breakfast:
2 eggs

3 vitamins (chewable)
1 b12 (pill)
1 cranberry (pill)

20 oz zip fizz (b12)

12 oz coffee

Lunch:
20g protein bar
12 oz coffee

6 oz Kefir (drinkable yogurt)

20 oz propel

Dinner:
Chicken
Broccoli

20 oz decaf tea

i am not a failure and you are not a failure.. yes, I am now at a BMI of 25.3 and therefore I need to get back to a healthy weight but I am going to do it now, and not wait until it is an isurmountable task.  10 lbs in 10 weeks. I can do that... instead of thinking about the whole 30, just think about the first 10.

Hi Kathryn

soooo good to see you again.  You are not alone as I am struggling and I know a few other Maybies are too.   Go you, signing up for this bootcamp - you are braver than I am.

No good hiding in a closet because you haven't been eating right - we all need support and in seeking help, we often help others without realising it.

The great thing about our universe is that each morning we get to begin again.  Today is a new day - leave the past in the past and look to where you are headed.

What one thing are you going to try and change today to move in the right direction?  For me, I am going to resist the call of the cookies, doughnuts and individual pies that are around the office!!!!  I only had 4 cookies and one pie yesterday - much better than before.  So today I am going to try and rebuild my wall of resistance, and no matter what the borg say...risistance IS NOT futile hahahahahaha :o)

Hope to see more of you, hugs, Ruth

Well, I haven't had alcohol for years, even before wls as I'm alergic to it, but I recently had a glass of warm mulled wine, and it went straight to my head - only lasted for a very short time though, but very enjoyable.

Now I enjoy a tipple in the evenings, once in a while.  Half a glass and I'm peasantly drunk.  A full glass and I can't walk!!!

Mindyou, I dread to think of the calories.....

I am at work today... my appointment called about 40 minutes ago freaking that she has overslept and would be here in 20 minutes and I was thinking, CALM DOWN, your appointment is not until 10.  what I was also thinking that I would not be ready in 20.. reason I made the appt at 10.. I need to warm up to the idea of working.. I told her I would see her at 10..... and she confirmed back... TEN.. okay. heehee

I am only on my first cup of coffee... better go make me an egg

UPDATE... Reading a new book, (Overcoming Runaway Blood Sugar) it is about controlling your blood sugar and hypoglycemia.  now since we have all been at this for awhile, we know what we can and can not do. what I did was increase my beans to increase my fiber and what I didnt know is that beans are a simple sugar. who would have freaking guessed that?  I can eat a glazed raised donut and have no reaction, but I eat four cookies with pinto beans and oatmeal in them and my blood sugar went through the roof. LESSON LEARNED. not all good things are good for you.

as for the girl issues... Perimenopausee is an ugly ugly ugly beast. now while a hysterocomy may only be a bandaid on a broken leg, for now, it appears to be my only solution.  irritability, mood swings and irregular periods JOY... I increased my flax seed and it has shown a marked improvement. I increased my progesterone and I made me mean as hell. ;-)

as for the initial reason for being here.. my weight has gone from 285 to 143 and now is at 157.  I am watching my portions, watching my glucose, nibbling throughout the day on proteins and cutting out all milks and beans now. we shall see if I can find the right c@cktail to get the weight off, the glucose down, and the hormones in check.