I'm so proud of you, it's not when a revelation comes that's important the fact that it got here is a momentous occassion. I'm not a night eater actually, but i sure am a day grazer. I bring healthy stuff to work with me and that suffices me usually. I have the folks in the cafeteria on alert to any sugar free sorbet or ice cream that comes in for the diabetics and those help. I used to be able to keep ice pops in the freezer down stairs but the new food manager told me no...made me want to poke him with an ice pop but i didnt' want to waste them so I gave them out to people instead. I love you and when you touch US soil you just give me a call or a number where I can call you, I can't wait to finally speak with you. ANDI

Now Andi, I hope you know me well enough to not take this the wong way... I'm glad you got sick eating the donut - now hopefully you have learned your lesson and will steer clear of them! I could be even meaner and say 'serves you right', but I won't. You know I love you ~ have a rest and hope you feel better soon. Just STEP AWAY FROM THE DONUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My eating varies according to the minute of the day. Mostly I have done well and been strong during the day and then the evening kicks in. Always was my hard times - evening grazing. Sometimes it helps to have an internal dialogue with the food that I want to eat, telling 'it' that I am stronger than it is and that 'it' can't make me eat it. Sounds really crazy, but alot of the time it works for me. I think because I feel like the food is in control and 'making' me eat it. Totally NOT true, and I realise that it is a way of removing myself from the the decision of not eating right. If the food has made me, then I couldn't help myself could I! It's not my fault that I am not eating the right things. See I told you I was crazy Funny how it's taken me 18 months (and the whole first half of my life) to figure that out!! But now I know that, I can't use it as an excuse for eating now can I? I just need to remember that it is ALWAYS my choice what and how much food I put in my mouth and I CANNOT put that onto someone (like, they went to all this trouble of cooking something for me - if I don't eat it I will hurt their feelings, etc) or something else (don't waste it, it's forcing me, etc). WOW big revelation.

Ruth, The holiday season doesn't seem to start in my heart until I start baking for others. It's part of my nurturing side! For two days, I did just liquid protein and sneaking a biscotti in with one of my lattes each day. Today, because of the party, I did have some lunch and then my husband ordered pizza and I could not resist a slice. Tomorrow I will do all liquids again and see if I can do that for a few days. I am only one pound from goal now and 11 pounds away from a total of 200 lbs loss from my heaviest. It would be nice to say... I've lost 200 lbs. I have never shared my photos before, because you asked so nicely, I added one to My Photos! Diane

I love baking, and often don't eat what I have cooked - it's just the action of it - really de-stressing. Have fun! Are you just having protein shakes at the moment, or eating as well? I want to do that, I just need to get to do it again. Once I start on things I'm fine, with me it's always the starting that's the problem. Please share some pics once you are all glammed up, we'd love to see you. Have a wonderful weekend, and let us know how it goes on Monday. hugs Ruth