doubt creeping in...

Well, I wondered if any doubts would kick in during these last days before surgery next Tuesday. I still feel very positive about going ahead, and I will have the surgery, but I guess I'm looking for a little reassurance from guys on the other side. The doubts come when I wonder how hard life will be after the surgery, but they're tempered by how much I know life will suck if I don't lose the weight and get healthy. I had a phone call from an old friend who had heard I was having this surgery. His exwife had surgery several years ago and has not done well with her health. He acted as if he was jumping in to warn me of this terrible mistake I was about to make, and it was as if he thought I was going into this blind and dumb. Of course I'm not, and I've researched and learned and tried to get healthier and stronger so that I'll be ready in mind, body, and spirit. My doubts are also tempered by excitement and hope - hope for a return to activities and lifestyle that became difficult with the excess weight. Hope for an end to these co-morbidities, diabetes, sleep apnea, high cholesterol, asthma, carpal tunnel... This hope is sometimes the hardest to believe is possible. Your stories inspire me and give me hope. Thanks for listening to an anxious fellow ramble on. I can't wait to join you on the losing team!