Help!

It hit me a few days ago too. I've never had surgery either and I keep thinking of whatifs too. I had my preop appointments on Friday and was joking with the anesthesiologist - "I guess I'll be OK as long as I don't look down and see everybody working on me with the defibrilator paddles..."

hello Robert, I'm sorry for all the things you are going through. it's hard enough worrying about surgery, but having the pain of your mom on top of it is so hard to bare. I lost my dad on april 4, 1996. we just had the 10 year anniveresry and i had a real hard time. my thoughts and prayers are with you. take care of yourself and God bless..nellie

robert i am sorry about the loss of your mom, i can only imagine how it must feel. if your surgery is on the 18th, you've got 23 days to go. since you're not gonna punk out, you better find somewhere with real good cheeseburgers and whatever it is you like to drink and chill. i am certain that next year this time, we will be having a very different conversation. get ready to be healthy and happy. oh, by the way, i am skerd senseless too!! my date is may 5 at lenox hill hospital. God's Speed, rainey

I can totally relate!! I thought it was just me- but I guess all of the problems I have been having seem to be more apparent to me... And I can't get to my regular routine. I think about the surgery alot. I think part of it is also in our mind and some is probably what we have been going through for sometime but had become sort of numb to it because it has been going on so long. That's just me thoughts on it. I am sorry to hear about your loss. And of course you know we are all counting-15 to go and boy am I nervous!!! Goodluck and great success Keep all of us May-bies posted and see ya on the losing side. Julie