How are we doing?

It's all gone quiet, so I am presuming it's because we are all busy with our new schedules of losing weight!!! (rather than hiding as we aren't doing too good I decided that instead of my usual reaction to when I gain weight (eat more and say what the heck) I would fight it, and put on my boxing gloves (well not really, but you know what I mean). So I've been working my butt off at the gym, and each night I do stomach exercises, and have been eating more, but also eating more regularly. I do not let myself go more than 5 hours without eating, wheras before I would quite happily not eat all day then eat in the evening. Even though it was a small amount and I would have protein shakes during the day instead of food, I think this was my downfall. My body feels much better on this and I'll see on Friday if the scales like it too. I have to say that when I got on them this morning I had lost 5 pounds since my recent highest!!! Woohoo, but I'm still going to work my butt off to get back to at least wher I was and then some. So I'd love to hear how you guys are doing..................

greetings from my hidey hole! I'm not sure what's going on with me but i hear junk food calling and some days i answer it. I have to start sipping on a more regular basis. On a good note i have been taking my vitamins on a regular basis and thats' pretty cool. If i don't shut my pie hole soon i won't fit into any of the pretty stuff i bought to wear to this weekends huge shindigs. ANDI

Good for you Ruth...working out really helps. I am still sticking to the lower carbs/higher protein thing...except on the weekends! Yikes...I don't know why? Anyway, doing ok...have a little headache cause my body misses them. Just trudging along...nothing new to really report. Trish

I have been out of touch, mostly because I am on a road trip to Whitehorse Yukon with one of my kids. I quit fostering but wanted to honour a promise that I made to this one boy and take him to Whitehorse (where I used to live) It was a 30 hour drive, we left Sunday afternoon and we rolled in Tuesday morning in the wee hours. We stopped at a natural spring hotsprings and swam for a couple of hours and it was so nice! I have no idea what faces me when I get home, just that I am doing what I can to stay okay with life. My little boy is quietly freaking out as he knows that he is moving to another family when we get back and he is soooo excited about this trip. It is kind of bittersweet. He is showing me how good he can behave, I think he figures that I can change my mind about quitting fostering. That is pretty sad. So I have been junking out big time, road trips are notorious for bad food, and this is no exception. I have given myself permission to junk out. It is either that or just beat myself up more, and that isn't an option right now. So, how am I doing? About as good as can be expected I guess. It probably won't be typical here for some time though, and I am okay with that.

Holly I wish I could reach out over the ocean and give you a great big hug. Fostering is such hard work and emotionally draining. You know when the season comes to an end and it's time to stop, no matter how difficult that is. I admire you for honoring your promise - that shows tremendous strength of character and will bear fruit in your foster sons life in years to come. It sounds like you are being kind to yourself and know that now is not the right time to beat yourself up over how you are eating. You are travelling the unknown path and where it may take you. Live each day to the best of your ability and remember to look for the gold specks as well as the gold nuggets along the way. Keep in touch and let us know what's going on when you can... Blessings in abundance over you

i wish i could reach up North and give you the hugs you really really need. How's about you just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and that G*D won't give you more then you can handle or lead you too far off the path he wants you on. I want you to enjoy the road trip food though, don't scarf it down in shame really savor it and make sure it's good quality so that you feel it's positive. I'll be here when you get back (still battling the same freakin 4-6lbs) and i'll be more then willing to go on the pouch test whatever thing is new and hot when you get back with you. We are in this for life and we're in it together, you are NOT alone Holly no way no how. ANDI

Hi there Ruth - I've been away (ok, avoiding) from the board, but I am so glad to see that you are still on the board. Since I last posted (I don't even remember when), I have dealt with a painkiller addiction (fortunately no longer on them), chronic pain, medication titrations, and ultimately weight regain (140lbs --> 168lbs). I am now flab. My life has changed a lot since the surgery. I think that that's why I succumbed to another addiction. Things changed so fast. In the past, I had coped with anxiety with food. When I could no longer use food to deal with the anxiety, I switched to the next thing available, which was my pain medicine. I am now off of it, but am having difficulty not doing compulsive behaviors. On the good side, I am now living with my boyfriend of 18 months. Prior to the surgery, I had not had an adult romantic relationship. Now I have found a great man who loves me the way I am. Thanks for posting. I'm happy to read your posts and see how you are doing. Take care Heather