Fed Up Friday
So I've stuck with my plan all week - 1000 cals or less, high protein, low/zero carbs and I gained two pounds this morning!!
I am so fed up with it. I lost two last week, great I thought, I'm on a downward trend, but no, it's come back to bit me in the butt.
Yes, I know I've started working out, but that was three weeks ago, and I lost last week while working out (and eating carb snacks too). This week, what is going on?????
I really don't have the heart left in me to continue with low carb reduced cals anymore. I may as well go back to eating what I was, at least I stayed the same on that.
Sorry for moaning on, but I'm just so frustrated with not being able to lose these last 17 pounds til I'm normal (BMI that is).
you know as well as I do that it is hard to stick to a new routine.
however.
you also may remember that when I was tracking my weight week after week during the first 52 weeks of surgery that even when I ate 225 calories a day, that some weeks I would GAIN... which defied logic... it is normal. it is part of the body,, and if you keep it up, EVENTUALLY you will force your body to DO what you WANT it to do!
you do not want stay where you are, you want to make a change, an that change is going to be fought by your body, but if you persist, eventually you will out stubborn your body and you will win.
I believe in you. You can do it.
Thanks Kat. Thanks for your reply and for your belief in me - it means a lot to know that.
It does defy logic, but knowing that you experienced it too while eating way less calories than I have does help. Yes, I need to look at this long term and as you rightly say, change is being fought by my body and even though this week my body has won this battle I need to persist and win the war.
Thanks again for the reminder. I'll try to stick it in my head and let my head rule my heart...
Oh yeh, whining REALLY helps - you just gotta have someone to whine to, which is where you guys come in (no not really - I appreciate you all and all your support)!!!
That's exactly how I feel though - that I am fighting against my body and that my body is doing all it can to sabotage my efforts. You'd think it would be pleased I'm trying to help it wouldn't you.
I'm all for WHINING...come on we got plenty to whine about...our bodies are working against us...trying to figure out the right "formula" for our rearranged insides is difficult. It does not seem to "fit" into any plan.
So, what to do...keep trying...do new things...we will win this battle...to tell you the truth, we have already won.
Ok, so I totally screwed up yesterday...Cinco de Mayo potluck at work...carb fest! So, then since I already blew it and my messed up psychie thought "well I might as well go out to dinner too"...pasta and of course drinks (you all know me.). BUT, I am putting it behind me, moving forward today and gonna just stick to it...whatever it is, just do your best.
Trish
okay, speaking of which..
whine...
today was a very typical day. I had cream of wheat for breakfast, and dumped. I had two slices of cheese and stopped the dumping
I had 2/3 of blue berry scone and a double coffee and was fine even with 5 spenda's and a huge dollup of 1/2 and 1/2.
lunch was a sensible trip to the chinese buffet to make #1 Daughter happy. I had a teaspoon tasting bite of everything that I wanted to try. and a 1/4 serving of each of the deserts that I wanted to try, my daughters even tried my tasting plate. very strange for them, since they are both heavy.
dinner was one slice of home made pizza and late night snack was a bunch of baby carrots and ranch dressing.
I got some fluids in, but not as much as I needed. think part of the dumping is the dehydration. mine is not a goal of loosing weight, but of loosing the feeling that I am so anxious that I would really have a hard time not throwing up. I really wish I could find something that would settle my tummy down into a nice rhythm that I could go wtih.